Are You A Life Hypochondriac?

Hypochondriac

Most of you know what a hypochondriac is.

For those of you that don’t – it’s a person that is abnormally concerned about their health.

A life hypochondriac (a made-up term of course), is someone who is constantly worried about the state of their being, their life, and the world that they live in. They live in a state of fear and paranoia about every little thing, and it makes it very difficult for them to accept new ideas that may help them progress in the direction of their true potential.

If you could read their mind, you would hear thoughts like,

“Is this okay, did I do that right, do I look fat, am I enough, did I do that well, is something going to go wrong, and are things going to work out for me?”

I must admit that I too, have been a life hypochondriac. I have questioned my very existence here. Do I belong, am I okay, if I say that – will I step on anyone’s toes?

That is a miserable state of being to live in.

Your breathing is a clear sign that you are meant to be here.

I am not sure why you question if you are going to make it out of a situation alive – because you always do.

I am not sure why you question your decisions – because somehow, someway you always wind up at the right place.

I am not sure why you doubt yourself because even if you mess up – every moment is brand new, and life always throws you another opportunity to get it right.

I know how unsettling it is to move into new territory. I know how nerve-racking it is to explore different parts of the self, and how terrifying it is to try and change your beliefs. It kind of reminds me of being a new parent. When your child is first born, everything is a reason to call the doctor. Everything seems wrong.

Is my child breathing okay, is he crying too much, how many times does he have to pee or poop, is this tiny little bump on his or her nose a cause for concern?

I get it.

You want to question everything. You want to make sure things are right. You are a concerned parent, and you want to make sure you are paying attention and making the right decision for your child at all times.

The same goes for life. You want to make sure you are making the right moves and that you are headed in the right direction.

The thing is… life is always going according to plan.

You can go with the flow or you can make things hard for yourself. You can worry or you can ease up a little bit. You can stress over things or you can trust that things will work out for you no matter what the process is or how long it takes to get to your desired destination.

You see, that’s why I like doctors. They are there to ease your worries. They have more information about the topics that run rampant in your mind. They know more. So when you call up the doctor frantic about your child having a minor fall, they can calm your heart and tell you to ease up a little bit. Why do you trust them? Because you believe that they know more than you do and that they know what they are talking about.

It’s the same way with your life force, God, and your inner being. It is asking you to ease up a little bit and trust more because it knows more about the subject matter of life and your trajectory – than you think it does.

Messages are always being sent to you.

Another path is always lighting up for you.

You are always being guided in the right direction; whether you believe it or not.

Now don’t get me wrong, you can doubt yourself, take a detour, and get lost, but eventually you will find your way.

I know how it feels to feel disconnected and to not trust life, and believe it or not, alot of that stuff stems from the past. Perhaps a parent didn’t show as much care and attention as you had hoped for, or maybe someone didn’t encourage your potential, or maybe someone rejected you in the past – I get it. So now when you think of going through life, you question everything, you worry, and wonder, and fret.

The key is to ease up and trust life a little more.

Your life force is backing your entire existence. It doesn’t want you to fail. It is putting its time and attention into your existence because it knows who you are, what you are, and what you have the potential to be in this world.

I know it’s hard and I know you have been told this before in other ways, but this message is coming back around to you again in a more loving way. Life wants to express itself through you. You were born as a channel for this energy. The only way that life can express itself through you (easily), is if you give it the room to.

So trust that you are here because you are meant to be here. If you need help believing again or trusting in the process – this may help.

Trust that life has chosen you (your personality, your skill sets, your talents and gifts) to express itself in a way that has never been expressed before.

You are no accident. Your presence is not an accident. Your existence is not an accident.

Ease up and let life show you how good it can be.

I know it seems easier said than done, but a little practice goes a long way.

Just Imagine

How great would it be to get some space between you and your problems, to find hope in a brighter future, and to learn to trust yourself again? I can work with you to help you in these areas and here’s how.

 Thanks for reading!

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Pieces Of My Writing Heart

Pieces Of My Writing Heart

Living From The Heart Day 10

Sometimes I don’t know what to do with this mangled heart of mine. There are pieces of me that were crushed by things that you would consider small. Pieces of me ripped away from their sense of security and belonging. I ask God sometimes, “what do you want with me? What can you do with these shattered pieces?”

In me resides broken dreams, unanswered prayers, and deep longings. Some of these things are hard to remember in detail, but I still feel their ghostly presence. I hear the faint whisper from them encouraging the most discouraging thoughts. There are also pieces of my heart that I cannot let go of. Those things are not easy to forget. They travel along with me everywhere that I go.

It is luggage that I carry along with me, and in return – refuses to get lost. They are remnants of that last good-bye that I never got to say, missed opportunities, failed relationships, and unhealthy exchanges. I can’t seem to shake some things loose. I see the things that I couldn’t fix as failures.

What To Do With These Pieces God?

I have many times tried to delete them – like I do to files on the computer that I no longer want.

But time after time again, life has proven that these files are un-deletable. Delete Delete Delete. Damn it; it doesn’t work.

For those of you who are out there trying that same method , let me save you some trouble. You can’t just get rid of the pieces of your life and heart that you don’t want. I’ve tried it.

So Again God, What To Do With These Pieces?

God responds to me in a gentle tone. I call this voice God because it just seems friendlier than my normal. Easier and more tenderhearted and approving of my missteps.

Well, you’ve always liked writing. Why not be vulnerable? Why not say what you feel? Why not let it out on some pages? There is relief and healing in expressing…

God Then Continues

You’ve always liked hearing inspirational stories. Why not create a few of your own?

You’ve always liked to talk around those you are most comfortable with. Why not write your heart out and let those who are comfortable with your essence find you?

You’ve always loved beautiful things. Why not create a space where you can observe beauty, the things that inspire you, and make you see the other side of the world? A space where people who feel just like you can go to take their mind off of their trouble, if only for a few moments a day. It will feel like eternity to them.

Don’t Try To Throw Yourself Away

You don’t have to throw your pieces away. They are the makeup of you.

They are what built your compassion. What helps you relate to what other people are going through.

Your struggles are what help you find solutions for those just like you who have felt lost.

But What If They Don’t Want My Pieces?

What if they don’t want to hear what I have to say? I am no expert or celebrity.

Just let your light shine anyway. No matter how small you “think” it is. Anyone can write words that people read. Maybe I am sharping your tools so that you can write words that people “actually hear”.

So Why So Many Tears God?

Tears water the soil.

Why Do I Feel So Sad Sometimes?

Sadness helps you feel joy after a while.

I Should Be Happy All The Time?

I am in a great position to express. Why don’t I feel that way all the time?

Because you want so bad to fit in, when all I want you to do is spread out.

You may never know whose watching. That one follower could know a lot of people. That one *like* could be the one that needs you or the one that you need.

God Finishes

Keep writing from your heart, and I will see to it that your broken pieces are mended. It may not always be in the way that you want it, but it’s always in the way that is needed.

{Love God}

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I wrote this article to show you why I write down what I feel and why I share these stories with you. It is healing sometimes for me to put a story to something that has broken my heart or to my feelings. Hopefully by seeing these stories you can take something away from my experiences. It’s not easy living from the heart at first. You are naked and feel like an baby that’s in a big new world. This is me, taking the things that hurt me the most or that fulfilled me and recording them. I am shining a light on some of my pains and some of my successes.

I don’t claim to be a guru or anyone that could even help you with your problems, but what I do know is that many days in my life I was in a very dark place. There were many times when I wanted to throw myself away. Literally, I wanted to end it all. There is a part of me that doesn’t want me to go yet. Not holding on to all of this pain in my heart. So everyday God shows me new pieces.

Pieces of my own shattered heart. God shines a light on them, which helps me write about them. My writing might not mean anything to anyone else, but it means everything to me. It helps me breathe. It helps me feel like I have something to share with this world and it helps me {even if for only a few moments a day} make sense of the pieces that I sometimes want to throw away.

I appreciate you taking the time to read this.

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Day 3: Living From The Heart

Day 3

Starting It Off

Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it will be opened. Matthew 7:7-8.

I asked several questions yesterday in my |||Day 2: Living From The Heart Article|||. One of the questions that I asked had to do with self worth. I asked, “what is your real worth?” Meaning, what makes people feel valuable? What were we created for? That question had been on my mind for a few days and I decided to open it up to the universe and the readers to see what feedback I would receive. The universe responded to that question by giving me tidbits of information in relation to that very same subject.

By “accident” (there are no accidents), following the information of a dream I had, I came across a video of Oprah Winfrey speaking with a famous author named Toni Morrison. In the video Toni Morrison was speaking about children and how they know your real feelings for them. Not by the what you say, but by how you feel when they are around. She asked a simple question; does your face light up when your children enter the room?

That question sparked an aha moment in Oprah. She responded by saying, “that is how you learn what your value is. Not by what the person is saying to you, but what you feel.” She then, at the end of the video, apart from Toni said, “that is why for so many many years I was a kid with low self esteem. Because nobody’s face or eyes lit up when I entered the space.”

That Was A Part Of The Answer

I totally can relate to that statement. In the article from yesterday I also mentioned that I need to fit in, I need to feel wanted. It is so true. I need to feel validated in some kind of way. Apparently, I am not the only one that feels that way. The video above is one way that the universe answered my question. I turn it back over to you. What is your real worth? What are your ideas on that topic?

I am very excited that the answers to our questions come in many different forms. We just have to be willing to listen for the cues and follow our instincts. That is not the only synchronicity that I experienced throughout my day. There were a few more synchronicities that went right in line with the same topic. It just proves that there is something bigger than us. Whether you call that something God, the universe, or infinite intelligence, it is aware of our questions, and would love to provide answers in a way that we connect with.

Some Inspirational Quotes

I want to share a couple of quotes with you…

You are worthy of being your own best friend. {T.D. Jakes}

What you seek is seeking you. {Rumi}

These quotes are so true. Nothing shifts until you shift. Nothing is answered until you ask. It doesn’t matter if you ask quietly or loudly. It only matters that you ask. The {All That Is} is asking that we dig a little deeper, open our heart, and step out on faith. Once we do that, the answers will then present themselves to us.

Even as I script this post I don’t know all that I am going to say. I have some kind of idea, yes. I even write down bits of insight, but I don’t know all that I am going to say until I actually move through each section. It unfolds to me in the way it needs to be said so that the message can get across best to those who can hear it the fullest.

The One Thing I Never Doubt

If there is one thing that I never lose faith about, it is the fact that there is something bigger than me. There is a source that knows my every nook and cranny. My personal flaws, my emotional turmoil, and the times when my heart lights up with joy. I hope one day I can know it as intimately, attentively, and personally as it knows me.

Sometimes I don’t know how to make life work for me and I must admit that I get pretty stubborn and cry-babyish when things aren’t going my way. I think that when I breathe and settle down however, grace steps in and answers the call. Sometimes I feel like a failure because I don’t fit into specific molds, but I think that very same omniscient presence is whispering, “You aren’t supposed to fit anyone else’s mold. You, yourself, are your own being.”

Sticking It Out

There is no shortage of inspiration. If one idea or one way doesn’t work there’s another idea, and another, and another. Most artists don’t start out doing their very “own” thing. They are always being compared to others or called a wannabe *insert the author’s name here* or a wannabe *insert the musician’s name here*. It’s only in letting go of what we think we should be that allows grace to step in and transform us into the person that it knows we are. So don’t ruin your spirit and artistry by comparing yourself to others and if others say you are a wannabe, turn and walk away. Everyone gradually evolves into the people they are meant to be. Keep your faith, find your value, and share that with the world.

New Inspiration

A new idea sprung from listening to those videos, my love of beautiful things, books, writing, and vintage things. I am going to build a home – online of course – where I can really show my love for writing. It’s going to be a home where I can show quotes, pieces of my writing, and beautiful photos that inspire and uplift. I am not sure how this will unfold but I know that it is going to be beautiful. Here is a collage that shows the essence of the new site.

Collage

It’s going to be a place where I can fall in love with language, writing, and the make-up of story telling. It inspires me just to think about the beauty of it. I hope you come by and visit once it’s up and running.

In Closing

It’s a cold night out. That put on some thick socks, curl up with a warm blanket, and hot cup of tea before bed kind of night. As I drift to sleep tonight thinking about the new beautiful space I am going to create, I will keep you {the reader} in mind. Let me know what you would like to see on the site. If you have suggestions, comments, or ideas leave a message below.

Thanks for reading, sharing, commenting, and following my blog!

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