Your Heart’s True Desire vs. What You Think You Desire

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I consider myself a loyal person.

That’s why when my sister called to tell me she was going into labor, I was in the car quicker than she could finish her sentence.

When I went into labor, I expected the same treatment.

I expected her to drop everything just like I did. I expected her bags to be packed (just like mine), and for her to be willing to stay the night, if that’s what I needed from her, but she didn’t.

She instead decided that showing up for work was more important. I, of course, was hurt. I felt like I didn’t matter enough to her for her to drop what she was doing to see me through that time in my life, but my perception was wrong. 

I didn’t notice that my perception was off until I was sitting in my hospital room and I noticed how peaceful it was.

My hubby was breathing and preparing himself for the arrival of our son and the nurses were quietly walking in and out to monitor the baby’s heartbeat and mine. As I sat there in peace, I noticed the perfection of the moment.

I noticed that what I thought I wanted and what I really wanted, were two very different things. 

I really wanted my son’s birth to be between me, my significant other, and the earth angels (the doctors and nurses), that were called to bring him into the world.

I realized that I didn’t want or need anyone else to be there, but the one who had seen me at my most vulnerable and that knew how important the birth of my son was to me.

I also realized how important it was for my significant other to have his privacy as well. You see, he had lost a child from a previous relationship, and this was a very momentous and somewhat frightening occasion for him as well.

The universe had lined up circumstances and events that led me and my significant other to what we really wanted and not to what we thought we wanted. God saw the bigger picture. God knew that I wouldn’t want my sister’s job to be in jeopardy and also knew that I didn’t want anyone in the room that would be worried or resentful for being there.

The birth of my son was perfect.

The people that were supposed to be there – were there, and it turned out better than I could have imagined. I just needed to let go of the idea that something was going wrong, and open to the fact that things were really working in my favor.

So if you are going through something right now that doesn’t seem to be working out the way that you had planned, just realize that you are on your way to something better. You are in good hands and you are being guided to your heart’s real desire and not just to what you think you desire.

Thanks for reading!

Renee B.

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Confusing Spirituality With Perfection

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Isn’t it true that so many of us have this unclear perception of what spirituality is?

I myself sometimes find it difficult to trust my intuition and follow my calling because I feel that I am not perfect.

Who am I to want to share my soul?

Who am I to want to offer guidance?

Who am I to declare myself a soul intuitive?

We have all these false ideas about spirituality that cause us to hide and shy away from our true potential and talent. We think that if we haven’t mastered every problem in life, then we shouldn’t put ourselves out into the world.

As if our depth of experience, wisdom, and perception obtained from the life we have already lived is somehow null and void because we haven’t mastered the whole of life.

I have news for you sweety, if you are looking to master the whole of life, you are in for a rude awakening.

The whole of life cannot be mastered – it is forever changing and we are being called to evolve and grow with it.

I think sometimes we are afraid to show our skill and gifts with the things that we do understand because we are being so quickly met by the new things that we still have yet to uncover, discover, and decipher.

Spirituality does not equal perfection.

Spirituality means bringing out the best of who you are – yes, finding ways to honor your true expression – yes, but not to be this perfect, suitable, color in the lines all the time, fixed, rigid persona. It’s not about that.

At least not the way I am learning to see it.

Yes, there are times when I tune into my intuition and I am spot on, but there are also times when I am moody, unforgiving, and just down right stubborn. That doesn’t mean that I am any less spiritual than anyone else. Those mood swings and times that you are out of alignment with your being, are just practice.

You find new ways to get yourself back into the space you need to be – to radiate who you are.

We are met with so much opposition sometimes when trying to accomplish that goal (alignment with the self). I believe that alignment with the self was meant to come easy to us, but we have made so many excuses as to why we can’t be that fully all the time. We’ve made mistakes, we’ve messed up, we’ve gotten angry, and we think those are valid reason to shy away from home (the place within where you feel completely comfortable with yourself). They are not valid reasons to shy away from home.

They are, as a matter of fact, opportunities to seek out home more.

We have to get this idea out of our heads. That we are somehow meant to be these pure, squeaky clean, angelic beings, with no blemishes on our records – that is absurd, and it’s about time that we really take a look to see where those ideas are stemming from.

Whenever something doesn’t feel right to you, you can always check in with your own heart.

This world is very large, very diverse, there are all kinds of things that you can get into. In addition to that, there are so many different kinds of influences, philosophies, and ways of life to choose from. We were not all meant to go the same way, and we did not come here to remain squeaky clean – we would have just stayed in the angelic realm if that were the case.

We are meant to however, learn to navigate our way through our emotions, our situations, and our experiences the best way that we know how. We are also meant to try and find the joy in each moment or to create it – if you can’t find it.

I don’t like this idea that I have this past karma hanging over my head, and I am living this life to somehow redeem myself from some past wrong – it just doesn’t sit right in my gut.

I am here navigating life the best way I know how. I try everyday to be a better person, correct my missteps, guide my emotions, share myself, and find my joy.

I can’t hold onto this idea that we are somehow being punished for not knowing how to do this thing we call “life” – perfectly.

Spirituality means aligning with your spirit. That’s it. In any way shape or form that you can do it. It means believing in yourself, honoring your calling, finding your own way and your own path, appreciating your life, and making strides to become the best person you can be during your time here on earth.

Discussion Questions

How about you – do you sometimes associate spirituality with being perfect?

Has it hindered your true expression in any way?

Thank you for reading!

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