Two Kinds Of Fear

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I came across a video where Tara Sophia Mohr was speaking about her favorite teaching about fear.

In the video Tara explains that she learned that there are two different types of fear.

Pachad (the fear of projected or imagined things) – this type fear is where we see threats and dangers that are not really there and Yirah (the fear-like feeling we feel when we are touching the sacred) – this type of fear is the fear we feel when we are inhabiting a larger space that we are use to.

It took me by surprise to hear the new “Yirah” definition of fear. I had never thought about fear in that way, although I had experienced it before, and still do.

I felt it when writing my book Journey Through Sattara. I kept feeling like the book was bigger than me, and like it came from a huge source because it just flowed through me.

I felt it when I started my blog and started putting my feelings, experiences, and heart out on the line. The small in me wanted me to just be quiet.

I still feel it sometimes when I offer my time and services by translating the energy of my spirit guides Ray.

The part of me that is use to being quiet, stepping on eggshells, and asking for permission, cannot fathom such an open and free form of expression. I’ve experienced both types of fears, but the “Yirah” form of fear is the one I seem to be encountering the most on my journey as an intuitive guide.

I am being asked in this intuitive work to lay my rational mind to the side, to believe in miracles and synchronicity, to trust my gut, and not the statistics. It’s not easy considering that we are brought up to use history and numbers as fact and not our natural drives and instincts.

The divine in us wants us to loosen up, allow more, feel more, experience more, and that’s a lot to take in for our more reserved, structured-based personalities. 

Have you recognized this type of new fear (Yirah) in your life as you’ve moved towards your dreams or towards new life experiences?

If so, tell us about it in the comments section.

It takes some practice to get use to the divine within you, but it’s possible. Everyday you just have to remind yourself that you are here to show your divine nature. It’s welcomed and encouraged, and you don’t have to rush it.

Just relax into your new sense of freedom and love, and after a while the sense of Yirah will begin to fade away.

Thanks for reading!

Renee B.

Intuitive Guide 

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It’s Okay Not To Be Okay

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I use the dental office as a place to practice my skills of patience and ease.

You see, I hate the dentist (the uncomfortable chair, not being in control, the pain that comes with getting work done on my teeth) – absolutely hate it.

But I use that uncomfortable place as a testing ground for centering myself. It’s where I let myself know that it’s okay to be uncomfortable. It’s where I show myself that it’s okay to feel pain and uneasiness and that I don’t have to hide or run away from it.

You may be going through some pain right now too.

There may be some uneasiness, discomfort, a difficult situation, or insert unpleasant feeling “here” that you may be experiencing.

I am here to tell you that it’s okay to feel the way that you do.

You are going to have bad days sometimes, and that’s okay.

You are going to be unhappy sometimes and that’s okay.

Don’t let anyone make you feel like your feelings are not worthy of being explored, felt fully, and expressed.

Sometimes it seems like the world is so quick to try to make you put on a happy face or fake that everything is okay – as if there is no room for any imperfections or negative feelings at all, but the more you resist your pain, frustration, and anger – the more it shows up.

“What you resist, persists.” C.G. Jung

So what does the dental office have to do with all of this?

Well, it’s where I show myself that no matter what I am feeling – I can adjust home.

It’s where I practice trusting the moment, the skill of the doctor, and trusting my own ability to make it through whatever pain I may experience. I notice that when I loosen up and allow, it makes for a much smoother experience. Whenever you are facing an uncomfortable situation, see if you can start to view the situation as an opportunity to see how much you have grown or to practice adjusting home.

I realize that I have everything I need to make it through and so do you.

No matter what situation you are going through.

So experience it all – the pain, the frustration, the anger, and the disappointment with things not going your way. It’s okay to admit that you have these feelings and I’ll let you in on a secret – it’s okay to feel. It means that you’re human – not that you are unworthy or bad – but human.

So feel it fully and adjust home. Feel it fully and adjust home. Feel it fully and adjust home. Ride the discomfort, but have compassion for yourself and steady yourself in the midst of the storm.

Trust yourself.

Trust the process.

Trust your ability to make it through.

I’m not going to promise you that you will never have another bad day, but I will say that you will no longer have to be a slave to your pain or a prisoner to your discomfort. With practice, you will learn how to face it, embrace it, and find your center easier.

You will make it through.

Face your fears, embrace your pain, and set it free – are your ready for a BREAKTHROUGH?

Thanks for reading!

Renee B.

Intuitive Guide & Inner Work Specialist

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Guided, Protected, & Safe – Always Listen To Your Intuition

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A few years back, I went to a park near my house to clear my head. I had my blanket stretched out across the grass, and had brought along a book to read and some soothing music to listen to. I was lying down with my nose in the book when I felt this weird presence behind me.

There was a path right next to the patch of grass that I was lying in, and two people were strolling down the path.

When I turned around to look in their direction, I just felt something very eerie. The gentlemen and the female that was with him didn’t look like they were from around my neighborhood. I had been to that park many times, and had seen many different people, and something about them just didn’t sit right with me.

I calmed myself down and continued to read my book, as they walked past me.

The guy turned around and gave me a cold stare that sent chills down my spine, and then he looked around to see who else was in the park.

At that point, I got very nervous, and something told me that the couple didn’t mean any good. I looked around to see how far my car was parked and to estimate if I could get away, if they came back or tried something.

I saw the couple stop not too far away from where I was, and they kept looking over at me, and then around the park again to see who else was around.

A group of people that were playing basketball was the last group there, and the two waited at the end of the path until the group of people got into their cars and were about to drive off.

My anxiety at that point went into overdrive, and I started to panic. I could get up at that moment and try to make it to my car or I could stick around to see what the two suspicious acting people were up to.

I looked at the car again as the couple kept looking in my direction and waiting for all of the cars to leave the parking lot. I could tell that as soon as the people left, they were planning on doing something – I just didn’t know what. I had my purse with me, my laptop computer, and an expensive phone. Who knows what they were going to do.

I felt a calm come over me as several dozen birds flew to the trees next to me. I can’t explain it, I just felt calmer. I thought one last time about running to my car, but I heard a calm voice say to me, be still.

I don’t know what made me trust the voice, but I did – even though I was terrified.

After the last car pulled out of the parking lot, I heard the sound of a motorcycle nearby.

Would you believe that my hubby had gotten off of work early, and when he noticed I wasn’t home, he went to the spot that he believed I would be?

When I saw his motorcycle pull into that parking lot, I swear to you I felt like the heavens opened up and like angels started singing. I felt completely safe and protected. I knew that my husband wasn’t going to let anything happen to me. I always feel safe around him, and all of my anxiety and tension eased right up.

I smiled from ear to ear as I saw my knight in motorcycle armor walk across the grass towards me.

When he got to me, he said, what’s wrong with a smile on his face, and then looked in the direction of the two people that were standing their staring in my direction.

I said, nothing, you’re right on time, and then told him about the behavior of the two people.

After they saw us interacting, the two people walked away. You would too if you saw how big he is. He is kind of big in stature, but my hubby’s presence is big too, and he has the heart and strength to match it. So I wasn’t worried at all after he showed up.

I could not believe the timing of it. I felt so watched over, protected, and guided, and it was an experience that I will never forget.

I share this story because I have been feeling a little disconnected lately. I forgot how good it feels to recall all the times when I did feel aligned and connected. It works wonders for getting the energy and focus moving in a different direction.

If you feel stuck, try it. Try to recall the moments when you did feel aligned and connected. Once you start to change your thoughts, you’ll start to recall more and more moments, and it will change your mood completely.

Do you have a story of intuition or manifestation to share?

If so I would love to hear from you.

Send your stories to me at reneeb@thesoulsguidance.com. I will share the story on my website www.thesoulsguidance.com, and on my wordpress blog as well. Be sure to add a title for your story, your name, and your website address so that I can provide a link to your website. I will email you the link to your story, and you can share it with your friends and family if you’d like.

Thanks for reading!

I look forward to hearing your stories.

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I Sense Overwhelm – How Many Roles Are Crying Out For Your Attention?

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I Had A Dream Last Night That Got Me Thinking About My Journey Into The Unknown.

As some of you know, I have been working on exploring newer, fuller, richer opportunities for myself.

I have taken steps to see a world unfold that I never even dreamed of when I was younger. This exploration of the self, exploring my goodness, and what I could potentially be, are all very new ideas for me.

With That Said, I Feel Like I Am Being Pulled In 100 Different Directions.

I am trying to be a good mother, a good wife, trying to write my next book, run a soul guidance business, and still trying to do my inner work so that I can grow to be the best person that I can be. That’s alot of damn hats to wear. But I can’t give up on my dreams because they are calling me.

I have never been so close to so many possibilities, and I must admit that it scares the hell out of me.

Especially since I feel I am doing it alone. I mean I have support, don’t get me wrong, but alot of my family and friends don’t really support my dream. They support me, but they just don’t really get this whole “want to be a writer” and “soul guidance counselor” type thing. They just don’t get it, and therefore they don’t support it as much as I would like them to.

I don’t blame them though. People have their own lives to live. They can barely navigate their own waters, let alone try to help someone that is wayyyyyyy out there in the ocean, and that has thrown away the oars (lost her mind). That is what they probably think about me chasing what they believe to be a “pipe dream”.

I Almost Followed Someone Else’s Idea Of A Dream The Other Day.

Bless her heart, my sister said to me the other day, “why don’t you become an accountant?” She asked me that question because I was helping her with her taxes – which was a polite way to say, why don’t you get a real job and start making some real money. 

The funny part about that story is that I actually considered it for a minute…

How About You?

How many different roles do you play? How many things right now are crying for your time and attention? Do you feel like you are trying to follow your dreams with little to no support? Does it overwhelm you sometimes – like it does to me?

My Dream Last Night Showed Me My Fears So Clearly.

In the dream I was on this beautiful cliff in Antigua about to plunge into this beautiful multi-colored ocean, but the drop was 100+ feet down. I thought I was going to die in the dream so I just stood there on the cliff paralyzed by fear.

Many different thoughts ran through my mind. What if I can’t swim? What if I can’t breathe? What if I am not strong enough to pull myself back up once I plunge into the water?

Isn’t That How It Goes When We Are Getting Ready To Take The Leap Into Different Parts Of Our Experience?

When we’re getting ready to accept a new job or new opportunities, when we are leaving the old stuff behind and moving into the unknown, or when we simply change our minds and move in a different direction.

Fear paralyzes us, and we remain stuck or overwhelm sets in and we feel that we cannot fulfill all these different roles we are being called to play. There are a few things that I want to remind you (and myself) of, because we do have our own answers. The only problem is, we don’t believe that we have the right answers sometimes or we aren’t taking the time to implement small changes that could make a world of difference.

So Here Are The Reminders

  • Your desires and dreams matter, and you do not have to push them to the side.
  • There is space for all (your family, your desires, relationship wise, etc).
  • Don’t penalize yourself for wanting all aspects of your life to work (the relationship aspect, the financial aspect, or the artistry aspect).
  • We were created to express many different parts of ourself at once.
  • We can decide to marry (commit fully) to those things we love, and divorce (withdrawal our time and attention) from the things that we do not love or care for.
  • If you are overwhelmed you can stop for a while. When you return, take baby steps. You don’t have to complete or get everything right all at one time. Stop thinking you have to do everything all at once.
  • That “have to finish everything right now” mentality is a perfectionist mindset. Staying in that kind of mindset leaves no room for you to breathe, no room for you to change your mind, or commit errors, and learn from your missteps. Staying in that perfectionist mindset is the quickest way to get yourself overwhelmed.
  • Fear is natural, but there is a new you on the other side of fear. Work on standing up for yourself and your dreams little by little. Say yes a little more, and criticize yourself for wanting more – a little less.

Learn To See Your Roles Differently

You obviously are a valuable asset in all of the roles that you play. You just gotta try not to overwhelm yourself with thoughts of being perfect in each role. There is time and space for each one of your dreams. As a matter of fact, all the roles you play, have the potential to bring out the best in you – you just have to see it in that way.

Your not being asked to be perfect. You are being asked to just be yourself – in all aspects of your life – as fully as you know how.

Another Reminder

You have your own answers. You know what you love and what you want to invest your time and energy into. Do more of that, and less of what you don’t want to do.

Be Patient

It takes time to cultivate new habits. Especially when you are doing something as scary as following your dreams.

It takes a step here and a step there, faith here and readjusting there, a leap here and holding out there.

There’s no set pattern, but you can find a rhythm that brings you into harmony with all the aspects of your life that you care about the most. Focus on bringing harmony to the elements that you care about the most. It’s not quantity – it’s quality.

When you are with your kids – be with them fully. When you are working on your art – be with it fully. When you are doing the dishes – be with that fully. It takes times to develop the habit of staying in the present moment, but you can do it. I’m rooting for you to be fulfilled in all areas of your life!

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A Date With The Devil – Cultivating New Ways To Deal With Self-Criticism

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A Date With The Devil… What an interesting concept.

Now before you start pulling out your crosses on me, understand that I am not in any way talking about conjuring evil spirits.

This is a different kind of exercise, and the term devil is being used to describe that negative, demeaning, intolerable, sadistic voice on the inside that shuts down anything positive that tries to emerge from within.

The term “devil” is the perfect word used to describe such a thing.

Think about how many times that voice has reared its ugly head – stopping you from moving forward, freezing you in your tracks, buckling your knees anytime you try to make a move. That voice is debilitating, and it hasn’t made its way into your life overnight. That voice has been around for a very long time. Especially if it’s effecting any area of your life.

Every time you tell yourself that you can’t do something, you’re not qualified, you’re not smart enough, you don’t have enough money, or that you are stupid for considering such a thing, all of those trains of thought group together and the effect of that kind of talk is a monstrous beingness that can’t wait to add its input to your life.

I have an exercise for you.

The purpose of this exercise is to see just how bad this devil has gotten.

Pick a subject that you are disappointed with yourself about. It could be financially related, relationship related, or something personal about yourself.

Sit in a quiet room and on a sheet of regular paper, write down the title of the subject that you are going to write about.

Ex. Ruining My Relationship With My Ex-Boyfriend

Make sure the subject is something that has been on your mind recently and something that carries alot of weight in your life – meaning something that really bothers you.

After you add the title, call forth the voice inside that has something negative to say about this subject. Believe me, it won’t take long for the thoughts to start flowing.

Write down everything that you hear. Try not to judge or defend yourself during this process. Try to just write. Writing will allow you to see just how out of control this monster has gotten. Write until you feel you have had enough.

You may feel overwhelming emotions such as anger, sadness, or resentment, but just keep writing until you are at your wits end.

When you are done, read the message back to yourself.

Take an assessment of how you feel during the entire process.

You will feel powerful emotion surrounding this exercise. This whole process is so that you can bring forth the voices that are hindering your progress in that area. We don’t even realize that these voices eat away at us on a daily basis, and then we wonder why it’s so difficult to progress. Look at all the animosity, hatred, and self-criticism we are holding onto.

After you have settled down and taken an assessment on how you feel, sit with your true beingness for a minute. You should notice right away that, that kind of self talk IS NOT HELPFUL. You will feel the negativity down to your bones. That is a good thing. You will recognize that the negative voice inside is absolutely bonkers, and has wayyyyy too much to say.

Then you have to realize that to “this particular persona” you can do no right. This particular persona only sees all the things that you have done wrong. It’s not taking into account your true intentions, your feelings, the heart you have, or anything like that. This persona only sees negative. It has taken into account only your failures and then bases its opinion off of those facts.

It doesn’t have an accurate picture and it’s not taking the “whole you” into consideration.

Realize that you cannot argue with such a fool, but you can lessen its influence in your experience, and once you have made yourself aware of what you are doing, it will be much easier to notice when that negative persona is creeping up on you. The awareness is all you need in order to start moving in a different direction.

After all of that drama, I want you to write again.

This time, you’re going to write yourself an apology letter. You’re going to apologize for the way that you’ve been treating yourself and for the things that you have been telling yourself. You’re going to let yourself know that you didn’t mean to create such a monster, and that you let a negative comment here and there slip through the cracks – it wasn’t your intention to create a devil inside.

Then I want you to remember one thing, and this one thing will stop you dead in your tracks if this voice presents itself again.

You would never talk to a close friend or loved one the way that you talk to yourself sometimes. So give yourself that same respect. {Renee “Soul Writer” Brooks}


When I had my date with my devil, the word that kept coming up in my letter was worthless. I now think back to what would have happened if I listened to that voice, if I stopped writing, if I stopped believing in myself. I would not have been able to develop this inner well of writing and healing resources to share with you all. 

This persona can be very difficult to deal with. It took years to create it, and it will take some time to lessen its influence, but the consequences of not doing it will be a bunch of broken dreams, pain that you can’t figure out where it’s coming from, and a sense of worthlessness inside that cannot be lived with.

It’s worth it to examine some of these thoughts and to put them in their place.

Not by force, but by recognizing what’s happening, and cultivating new ways to see yourself.

Thank you so much for reading!

P.S. If you need help releasing negativity or know someone who does, visit the Soul Guidance Consultations page for a private consultation.

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Healing Your Creativity

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We all have the right to create.

Too often however, our dreams are shattered by things that we aren’t even conscious of.

So today, we are going to take a look at some of the things that may have damaged your creativity, what may have made you put your paintbrush down, cancel that course you were going to take, stop writing, or hang up your guitar.

After we take a look at what may have caused the block in your creativity, we can then start to move in the direction of healing the wounds left behind from it.

The art of healing anything is to get outside of your regular thoughts, to open up to the solutions and ideas that are right in front of you, and to allow a new perspective to sink in.

The art of healing involves trusting your intuition, following your inner promptings, and listening to your heart. If you are someone who has hit a road block in your creative endeavor, your heart is speaking to you right now to tell you, “it can be healed”.

I want you to go back in your mind and try to figure out what made you quit.

Sometimes the influence to give up comes from outside sources – the parents who told us to get real jobs, the friends that thought we were crazy for pursuing our dreams, the dirty looks from those who hold positions of power, and that think “art” is for children – not for adults.

Oh yes… those beautiful influences that are around us! Sarcasm

Those people who may have discouraged you from revealing your creative self are not the disease. They are only a symptom.

Go a little deeper, and try to figure out what made you welcome and accept their authority about “who you are”, rather than your own inner authority.

Why do you feel they know better than you do? Why did you accept their judgment? Why did you believe it when they told you to hang it up? Those are the bigger questions.

Perhaps the problem doesn’t stem from outside at all.

Perhaps the problem comes from inside, and those villains are just the projections of your hidden thoughts.

Think about how many times you may have questioned your authority to write (if you are a writer). How often do you hold yourself back – afraid that you will fail at your artistry? How often do you stifle your words, your flowing art, or your music because you fear you will “sound stupid” or people “won’t get” what you are trying to say? Do you realize now, why these outer roadblocks may be showing up?

It’s not enough to be good at something. You can know that you have what it takes, but listening to that inner voice that has you comparing yourself to others and questioning your authority and place within the world as an artist, is damaging to your creativity.

We are all unique in our individual expression.

If an art form grabs hold of you, it has obviously chosen you as the perfect medium for some of its greatest expressions. {Renee “Soul Writer” Brooks}

You must take your creative power back -back from the recesses of your mind that feed you lies like “you aren’t good enough” or “you don’t have the right to do such a thing”. Back from the predators that are looking to have you do in life what pleases them (your parents, jealous friends, or relentless family members).  Back from the hoarder inside that feeds you lies like “people will steal or take advantage of what I have” or “I don’t have enough”.

These are all lies that have some HOW crept into your psyche.

The healing comes from you realizing that these things are not true. You do have the right to express. Your viewpoint is unique. Your inner resources are not dwindling – they just need to be reawakened – stirred up in a sense.

There are people out there that do connect with your work. Every follower that you have, at some point and time, read and connected with a piece that you wrote. Every fan, listened to and connected with, a piece of your music. Why do we pay attention to that one joker in the bunch that has something to say that’s negative, instead of focusing on why you do what you do, and the people that resonate with what you do?

I have another clue as to what may have caused you to quit.

The fear of exposure. Your art is your heart.

How naked and vulnerable we feel sometimes when our hearts are on display.

When people can see the real you without any hiding.

We tend to give our love (our hearts and our art) to those that we feel care about us the most. It’s a sensitive thing to then try and express your artistry to the public. The public is – well you know – public. It’s an open room where people can actually tell you that they hate your stuff or that they disagree, and the thought of having your life’s work (your baby) in a sense bashed is very upsetting.

The only thing we can do however, is be true to ourselves. That’s it. It’s you and your artistry – that’s it. It’s you expressing your view on the world – that’s it. Who cares if other people don’t resonate with what you put out. I know, I know, it does matter, but we have to grow thicker skin as artists. You have the right to express because you are alive, breathing, and interested in your artistry – that’s it. You don’t need any other justification.

Soul Guidance for Healing Your Creativity

As some of you may have noticed, I have finally introduced my spirit guides known as RAY to the world. We together have come up with the “Soul Guidance Consultations” as a path to help you connect with your true beingness.

For those of you who are not aware of the new Soul Guidance Consultations, you can take a look at the “Work With Me” page.

The spirit guides known as RAY would also like to offer some words of encouragement on healing your creativity.

We are most appreciative to be able to speak with you for just a few moments about your creativity. You are all unique, fascinating, one-of-a-kind beings who are here to make sense of the world around you. You are translating the energy of the world. You are all translators and your unique perspective is relevant. Your healing will come once you recognize that you are all full, mighty beings, who are here to translate this energy into new sources of freedom and greater expression. Once you realize that, you will be unstoppable. Blessings be to you dear one. {RAY}

I have been working with RAY for the past 5 years. It took a few teachers along my path, my inner being, and positive thoughts to help me finally decide to share this resource with the world. I too, thought I wasn’t good enough to enter this writing world and to do spiritual work because of some of my past perceived failures and insecurities. It has been a wonderful journey however, and by sticking with it I have seen my writing transform right in front of my eyes. I have felt messages from RAY come through clearer than they ever have before. I have broken through the blocks that told me “I am not good enough”, because it’s just not accurate.

Once I realized that and changed my thoughts, the well of resources opened and began to flow. These posts are a symbol of my well of resources flowing. It’s time for you to open and allow yours to flow as well.

If you are interested in healing this area of your life, take a look at the “Soul Guidance Consultations” page. There are 3 different levels of service that I provide for any of you who are seeking guidance.

Thank you so much for reading!

Happy Healing!

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The Unknown, Anxiety Attacks, & Putting It All Into Perspective

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I had a dream last night that inspired this post.

For a while I have been interested in the feelings that we have and where they arise from.

For the past couple of weeks I have been experiencing panic attacks. They seemed to come out of the blue, and I couldn’t understand why I started to get them. The only other time I ever had such a thing happen was a couple of years ago when I thought I was pregnant, and wasn’t adequately prepared (financially) to have a child.

Other than that – I have never had panic attacks before.

So they started coming out of nowhere, and I decided to try and figure out what the hell was going on inside of me to cause me to have 25 minute panic attacks.

While decoding someone’s dream yesterday, I defined what evil and darkness really is. I called evil and darkness – a loss of light, fear of uncertainty, fear of the unknown, loss of control, and thoughts and circumstances that cause you to lose touch with your “God-Self” or your “Light-Self”.

Decoding that dream helped me realize what my panic attacks were in relation to. For the past couple of years I have been going through some major transformations. My foundation is shifting, my thoughts and beliefs are too, and everything that I was taught to be true about life is now being called in for questioning.

When you are trying to better yourself and break old habits, the “familiar” in you doesn’t want to go so easily. The “familiar” in me is the part that holds on for dear life because to get rid of the “familiar things” would (in my mind) somehow mean the death of me. Which isn’t the slightest bit true.

The situations that I am going through right now have opened up the floodgates of fear. I am learning all of this new material that doesn’t quite fit with the way that I’ve been taught. But somehow, I know that it’s necessary for me to move on from my old ways of thinking. They are no longer serving me, nor helping me move towards the life I am trying to grow into.

With great change comes more responsibility. Being responsible for my own life is one of the hardest things that I am learning how to cope with. You mean to tell me that I am responsible for creating my own reality? You have got to be kidding me. You mean to tell me that I can no longer blame things on my upbringing. Shoot me now. You mean to tell me that I can no longer blame God for the awful things that have happened in my life? It’s all up to me? I don’t think so. 

How can anyone deal with all of that information coming at them faster than a freight train?

No wonder I’m having panic attacks. I am being asked to cultivate things within me that I never even knew existed – like in real life.

Allow the universe to show you its magic? What the hell does that mean?

You don’t have to work so hard; it can be easy? Are you kidding me? I’ve worked hard all my life, and for very little at times.

All you need is inside of you? You mean my happiness doesn’t have anything to do with my job, my husband, or the things that I receive? I’ve searched for this shit everywhere, and it’s been here all that time?

The truth is, I’ve learned that all the answers are really inside.

{Renee Brooks}

How you feel about your life is very telling. Not only does it tell you what you are currently putting out into the universe, it also gives you a clear picture of your future.

So how do you get a hold on those “out of control” feelings – those feelings that seem to manifest out of nowhere – no matter how hard you try to get rid of them?

Well, I’ve learned a few things through decoding my dreams, writing my new book, and by studying some great philosophers.

The first thing that you have to realize is that you have everything you are seeking, inside of you. You have compassion inside, you have forgiveness inside, and you have understanding inside.

You just haven’t exercised that power.

Last night in the middle of my panic attack I was feeling so helpless. I did something that my inner being encouraged me to do.

I turned inside. 

I balled up my fist, put my hand of my heart, closed my eyes, and repeated,

If I don’t have anything else, I have myself.

{Renee Brooks}

 It took only a few minutes to soothe my anxious heart. My breathing slowed down, my heart-rate returned to normal, and I could feel knots of tension release from my body. I knew in those moments that I could go to that place within – at any time. I had experienced a new place inside of myself. A place of truth – my inner sanctum.

That is what my soul was calling from me. It was calling me to recognize my ability to turn my thoughts of panic and fear into knowing and reassurance. It was calling me to realize that I could find my way “home” quicker and that I didn’t have to feel helpless when any sign of panic showed up. It was calling me to realize that I didn’t have to wander around in the darkness afraid.

Once you learn to define what you are experiencing, you take the eeriness out of it.  

So here it goes – My panic attacks are happening because I am going through a period of darkness. By darkness, I don’t mean that there are creatures out to get me, that I’m possessed, or that I am doomed.

All darkness is, is the navigation through one’s life – without the proper light.

{Renee Brooks} 

My optimism, faith, and trust is not there because I am in a stage of the unknown. I’ve never navigated through a sea this strong before, and I’m afraid.

I’ve never stepped up and declared what I wanted out of life – without anyone’s input.

I’ve never dropped all things before to follow my dreams. 

I’ve never been without a job and called from myself the strength to move forward alone as my own boss. 

I’ve never told the truth inside about not feeling right about some of the things I was taught. 

Yet now, I am in the middle of all of this transformation – seemingly alone.

I am learning to find my way “home” in the midst of darkness. I am learning how to navigate through uncertain periods. You don’t have to know which way the wind is going to blow. You just have to know how to navigate the ship.

This realization does not mean that I will never experience anymore panic attacks. It just means that when you look inside, you have a deeper understanding of yourself and the world around you, and it makes more of a difference than you may think. Looking inside helped me steady myself in the middle of a terrible panic attack. It helped me realize that the place inside I experienced is always there. It helped me realize that I don’t need anyone or anything outside of myself to feel whole. All you have is right inside. Sometimes the circumstances have to get unstable enough for you to actually seek & find.

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