It’s Okay Not To Be Okay


I use the dental office as a place to practice my skills of patience and ease.

You see, I hate the dentist (the uncomfortable chair, not being in control, the pain that comes with getting work done on my teeth) – absolutely hate it.

But I use that uncomfortable place as a testing ground for centering myself. It’s where I let myself know that it’s okay to be uncomfortable. It’s where I show myself that it’s okay to feel pain and uneasiness and that I don’t have to hide or run away from it.

You may be going through some pain right now too.

There may be some uneasiness, discomfort, a difficult situation, or insert unpleasant feeling “here” that you may be experiencing.

I am here to tell you that it’s okay to feel the way that you do.

You are going to have bad days sometimes, and that’s okay.

You are going to be unhappy sometimes and that’s okay.

Don’t let anyone make you feel like your feelings are not worthy of being explored, felt fully, and expressed.

Sometimes it seems like the world is so quick to try to make you put on a happy face or fake that everything is okay – as if there is no room for any imperfections or negative feelings at all, but the more you resist your pain, frustration, and anger – the more it shows up.

“What you resist, persists.” C.G. Jung

So what does the dental office have to do with all of this?

Well, it’s where I show myself that no matter what I am feeling – I can adjust home.

It’s where I practice trusting the moment, the skill of the doctor, and trusting my own ability to make it through whatever pain I may experience. I notice that when I loosen up and allow, it makes for a much smoother experience. Whenever you are facing an uncomfortable situation, see if you can start to view the situation as an opportunity to see how much you have grown or to practice adjusting home.

I realize that I have everything I need to make it through and so do you.

No matter what situation you are going through.

So experience it all – the pain, the frustration, the anger, and the disappointment with things not going your way. It’s okay to admit that you have these feelings and I’ll let you in on a secret – it’s okay to feel. It means that you’re human – not that you are unworthy or bad – but human.

So feel it fully and adjust home. Feel it fully and adjust home. Feel it fully and adjust home. Ride the discomfort, but have compassion for yourself and steady yourself in the midst of the storm.

Trust yourself.

Trust the process.

Trust your ability to make it through.

I’m not going to promise you that you will never have another bad day, but I will say that you will no longer have to be a slave to your pain or a prisoner to your discomfort. With practice, you will learn how to face it, embrace it, and find your center easier.

You will make it through.

Face your fears, embrace your pain, and set it free – are your ready for a BREAKTHROUGH?

Thanks for reading!

Renee B.

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When Life Seems Difficult – There Is Always Guidance Around

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As an intuitive guide, I know how important it is to feel connected.

Unfortunately however, life can sometimes throw us situations that seem very difficult to navigate through and we tend to lose that connection.

It is very important that you know, there is always guidance around to assist you.

If you are having difficulty in any area of your life, try giving Ray (my spirit guides) a try. Their messages are always offered with love, sincerity, and respect. They are excellent with helping you find ways to heal, acknowledge your true worth, and unlock your potential.

If you resonate with the messages here and on the website, an Inner Work Session may be the right path for you.

We look forward to working with you.

P.S. Trust your intuition. You have the ability to rendezvous with the right guidance at the right time, and we are here to help.

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Listen To Your Heart’s Whispers


All is well within you – in the place where your soul resides. Find that place within. Where all of your choices are alright. Where all of your passions are permissible. Where your secrets are safe and your voice is heard.

That place within you whispers – it’s okay to say no.

It’s okay to not feel like it.

It’s okay to cry.

It’s okay to acknowledge that you’ve been hurt, unheard, and unseen – it’s okay.

It’s okay to feel scared sometimes and equally okay to feel joy.

Your soul is not judging you. It’s not in the business of making you feel bad or feel regrets. Your feelings are just that – feelings. Nothing more. Your feelings are no more the entire make up of you than a droplet of water is the ocean.

Your soul whispers – listen to your heart. It knows when you’re tired. It knows when you’ve had enough. It knows when it’s time for a change.

Your heart takes an interest in your deepest longings. It knows when you’ve stayed too long and when you haven’t stayed long enough.

That space within you breathes the whole of you at all times and it wants you to feel what calm, reassured trust in your entire beingness feels like.

From the book I am writing (Soul Guidance – Finding Your Way Home)

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Inner Work – The Work That Really Matters


I Just Had A Huge Revelation

I am telling you – if you haven’t started working with your dreams – it’s time!

I never imagined that when I sat down to decode a fairly simple dream about a small ranch house, tucked away from the street, surrounded by trees, with an office inside, that I would uncover a deep hidden fear of mine.

I got the notion today to look at my dream as my inner landscape. Immediately I saw myself as the house – tucked away – in the back – secret – away from visitors and people. I went a little deeper into the dream landscape and noticed there was an office inside. There was a lady sitting at the desk – doing a job that she hated to do.

As I explored this dream imagery, I realized that lady was me. She was me sitting in a position that I hate. I can’t stand the corporate world, but I never quite understood why until I decoded my dream literally just a half an hour ago.

I Followed My Impulses To Dig Deeper

As I explored each dream symbol, I realized that the dream was directly pointing towards my feelings towards work. You know – being in the rat race, listening to a boss, following directions.

As I trusted my instincts and wrote candidly about what I felt about each symbol, a whirlwind of emotion started to rise from me.

I followed the emotions and I asked myself – what is this about? Why the tears? Why so much tension in the body? I listened to my inner voice, my heart, my soul, and it cried out with an answer.

A Little Background

For those of you who don’t know me, I up and quit my job almost 4 years ago. I didn’t feel like I left out of anger, I just left because I felt it was the right thing for me to do at the time. I no longer felt like I belonged there.

It wasn’t an easy thing to do – trust me…

Anyway to keep a long story short, anytime I even thought about returning to the corporate world, I shut down completely. I wouldn’t even entertain the thought of it. I wanted to instead, go with my heart and passion of writing and exploring other possibilities outside of the corporate realm. My efforts to produce a business and make a living writing – failed, and I couldn’t understand why. I was (in my mind), doing what I believed I was called to do.

But through doing my inner work I could tell that something was just not right. There is no way that I was just meant to work under someone else’s rules and be a key component to someone else’s dreams, but when it came to mine – I couldn’t express it? The whole idea just didn’t feel right to me.

By Blocking What I Hated – I Blocked Everything

I hadn’t realized that I was holding something deep inside that has hindered my entire flow of abundance.

When you shut down and lock up the most sacred parts of yourself – you shut it off to everything – even the blessings that are trying to come your way.

I was writing down all the stuff I felt about every symbol and when I got to explaining why I don’t like the corporate life, I started bawling. I could barely contain myself. I blurted out,

I Don’t Want To Be Evaluated Anymore!

Man, when I said that… the tears poured out even harder.

What A Huge “Aha” Moment

If you can understand the place that I came from, you can understand why that one sentence meant everything in that moment.

As a child I had to be perfect. I couldn’t bring home anything less than a B. I couldn’t so much as even spill a drink without being reprimanded. Every moment I was being watched, evaluated, compared to someone else.

Even in the jobs that I had taken there were mid-year reviews, end of the year reviews, progress reports, sales reports, and endless ways that they could track your every fault and failure. I can’t handle that kind of pressure and evaluation.

Especially since on paper, I may not look like anything to you. On paper, without any degrees and no real training I may seem like nothing. I may only seem like I am qualified to run your errands or get your coffee – to basically be what you tell me to be or do what you tell me to do. But, I am so much more than that.

What I Learned

Coming to that realization felt like magic. It felt like 5000 pounds of pressure lifted off of me.

You see, I thought that I was just being stubborn, and even sometimes talked down to myself for holding on so doggedly to this idea of “stepping out on my own”, but now that I know why (from a deeper perspective), I can start to adjust some of my thoughts inside to allow what I really prefer to start flowing.

I also learned that if I take a step back from all of those emotions I held in, I can see that every job may not be looking to just evaluate you based on how you look on paper.

There may be a space more suited for me. Some place where they can feel who I am energetically. They can see my heart and that I am dedicated. They can see my true gifts and talents.

Once I open to that possibility and stop shutting down anything that even resembles “work”, I will start to let other opportunities that fit me – flow.

I still want to do my own thing, and there is nothing wrong with that.

Holding a grudge in my heart however, is not the way to let those other opportunities that I am looking for in.

In Closing

Man, I feel so much relief right now. I have always been interested in the self and self-discovery. To some people that may seem like a conceited path to pursue, but I am telling you, once you realize how you act, what you are, and how it creates your world (through experience), you can then go and share what you learned with others.

In addition to working with my dreams, I also went to my second home (the library) and got a few books on creativity.

I swear I think my heart and the angels are working with me to clear some major blocks. I am deeply appreciative. Without my “nosy” nature, I would have never dug this deep and would have never found what lied behind all of that frustration.

I am currently reading The Vein of Gold (A Journey To Your Creative Heart) by Julia Cameron and Setting Your Heart On Fire by Raphael Cushnir. Working with these two books and my dreams is leading me in the right direction.

I am so happy that I am able to share this insight with you all.

Thank you for reading!

P.S. Dreams are a doorway to the soul. It takes some work to get to the core of things, but it is soooo worth it. If you are interested in learning more about your dreams, head on over to my Soul Guidance Dreams website and check it out.

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Music For Your Muse

Music For Your Muse

Do You Have A Song For Your Muse?

I sure do.

Music is one of the tools that I use when moving into my creative state. 

It’s alot easier to write a scene when you are right there feeling the same feelings that pertain to that scene.

Music also allows me to visualize the scenes more vividly. When I was writing my book Hooked On The Jones, the song “Spoiled” by Joss Stone put me right in the mood I needed to be in to write certain chapters.

When I was writing Journey Through Sattara, The song “Radioactive” by Imagine Dragons provided the heart-pounding beat that I needed to conjure the feelings of triumph and power.

The Song That I Chose For My Overall Muse Is “Say You Love Me” by Jessie Ware

This song explains the relationship between my Muse and I perfectly. The ups and downs, the walking away and then coming back, the frustration, the feeling of great joy to have found what I love to do, and also the feeling of great sadness when I can’t express how I really want to. This song gets me every time. It’s almost as if my craft is speaking to me and telling me to dedicate myself to it fully. Like it’s telling me to breathe it, live it, and be it.

So what’s your favorite music for your muse? I would love to hear what song explains the relationship between you and your muse.

Thank you for reading!

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Truth Be Told Tuesday

Truth Be Told Tuesday

I have to come clean.

I love a good cry.

Crying helps me release so many pent up feelings.

Sometimes when I cry, I don’t even know the root cause of the tears.

I know where the tears began. I can pinpoint the subject that they are about, but I can’t figure out where the thoughts rise from.

Sometimes the thoughts are so quick and so irrational that I can’t make sense of them. Sometimes the thoughts arise because I feel lonely, sad, or heartbroken, but I can never quite pinpoint where the feelings of sadness or loneliness originated from.

When you are feeling hopeless or helpless emotionally, it’s good to let it out (for me at least).

My tears say the things that I am afraid to say sometimes – I’m scared, I feel alone, I feel unworthy, or I feel unloved.

When we are taught to be strong and toughen up, we hold so much inside. But tears aren’t quiet. Tears let the world know that we don’t have to be tough. Tears let the world know that we are human and that we do feel. Tears let the world know that we give a shit about something. Tears let the world know that there is passion inside that hasn’t found the right outlet.

So I love to have a good cry. As a matter of fact I had one today. Actually I had a couple of good cries today.

I will leave you with a good quote about tears.

Crying doesn’t indicate that you’re weak. Since birth, it has always been a sign that you’re alive. {Author Unknown}

Thank you for reading!

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I look forward to hearing your response.

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The Top 5 Reasons I Love To Write


Reason #1: To Express My Thoughts & Emotions

If I don’t write to empty my mind, I go mad. – Lord Byron

It’s so true, isn’t it? There are so many other ways to express yourself, but for me writing seems to be the way that is most natural. I could have easily just picked another craft to indulge in, but there is something about writing that just delights my soul. With so many emotions and thoughts flowing through us there has to be some kind of outlet.

For as long as I can remember I carried a notebook around with me. Whether it was venting to my best friend about my annoying teachers back in high school, writing letters to those who hurt me deeply, or just writing down 100 reasons why I loved someone near and dear, writing has been a way to make sense of all the emotions and thoughts that flow through me.

Reason #2: Freedom

If I wanted to write a story about pink fairies, in purple dresses, dancing around a small pond filled with sugar – I could!

I love that writing has no restrictions. I can be as sinister or as ethereal as I want to be. When I put pen to paper there is no telling what my crazy mind may conjure up. I can go as far as I want to go, dig into any topic that delights me, travel to the darkest corners of my mind, and excavate treasures that are beyond my wildest dreams.

There is freedom in writing and freedom is what our soul cries out for.

Reason # 3: I Am Judge, Jury, & Executioner

And I don’t have to feel bad about it either. I love the fact that I am the one who sets all the rules in my writings. I am the God of the story! I give all of my characters their motives, intentions, desires, and their path. I get to say who stays and who goes. It’s a tough job, but someone has to do it!

As writers, we get to create and govern the worlds that we dream up. We are the police officers, the priests, the wanderers, the lost souls, the animals, the rioters, the angels, and the demons of our stories.

Reason # 4: I Get To Experience Different Parts Of Myself

Ohhhhh how I loved experiencing myself as a black panther named “Jungle Cat” in my novel Journey Through Sattara. The power and influence of that animal in my story helped me see the power and influence that I have within me. (*Spoiler Alert*) The fact that I could dream up an animal that plays such a huge part in the survival of Ne’Ya and Su”Ma (the two main characters of the novel), is amazing to me. The characters that we give life to in our stories are the parts of ourselves that want to be expressed. Who knew that I was that powerful, that fearless, and that instinctual? If you haven’t read Journey Through Sattara yet, it’s about time that you get a copy.

Reason #5: For The Fantasies

“Why can’t you just say it? Are you attracted to me Mr Jones?”

He didn’t answer. He just dropped his head again.

“I think I am going to head home now,” he said as he put the glass to his lips to finish off his drink.

“Why?” I asked curiously.

“Because if I stay here, I am going to be very disrespectful to you.”

– Excerpt From My Novel Hooked On The Jones

It doesn’t matter if we say it or not – we live in our minds. We are always daydreaming about things that society would deem inappropriate. Writing helps us act out those fantasies without causing too much trouble. The character Leslie that I dreamt up in my Hooked On The Jones book is smart, sexy, and well put-together. Those are all qualities that are acceptable in today’s society. (*Spoiler Alert*) But add a Manhattan apartment, a powerful business man, and a few drinks and suddenly you have a scene that if lived out in real life, would have your momma smack you across the face.

We have all dreamed about crossing boundaries and doing things way outside of our character. Writing allows you the freedom to do it, but without ruining your marriage or life afterwards.

In Closing

Writing is a way of life. It’s how we express ourselves and communicate how we feel. We create worlds with our words and words have power. I have always believed that. You can write a few sentences and crush someone’s spirit to the point of no return or you can write a story that inspires a nation, that heals, and that unites. My book Mother Father God is a perfect example of that.

Writing is in me. I may not form my sentences in ways that everyone deems appropriate, but there are stories to be told, and energy that would like to be expressed. I write because I believe I was chosen to write. I believe there is Great Spirit that has something to say and it comes to me (in the form of inspiration), because I am the perfect person to say it.

I don’t know why, but apparently it sees something in me. It sees something in the experiences that I’ve gathered throughout life. It sees something in the way that I put words together. It feels something in my heart that is a match to its spirit. What could be more exciting than an unseen force wanting to speak, and choosing you to script the story that it wants to tell?

How about you? Why do you love to write?


Day 6: Living From The Heart


Today Has Been Bizarre

For those of you who are following my posts for this 30 day challenge, you probably know that I haven’t been able to fall asleep for the past 5 days. My body said to me today, “good night”, and laid itself down to rest without my consent. It’s not that I wasn’t exhausted from being up staring at the ceiling for the past 5 days, it’s just that my body doesn’t seem to agree with the time periods that I would like to go to sleep.

On top of my fickle a** body not falling to sleep when I want it to, it also went HAM on me today. I mean my body feels like it’s going to war with itself. I feel like I have a fever, mixed with dizziness, mixed with inner turmoil. I don’t know what is going on. This year I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia, but I think that it’s more than that.

Mind vs. Body

For some reason my body is not agreeing with my mind, and my personality and life is stuck in the middle of it. If I told you that I feel like electricity is being passed through my body, would you believe me? If I told you that I can feel energy in my home that is not very nice, would you believe me? If I told you that I can sense things deeply, would you believe me?

I think in some way life is trying to reveal my gifts to me, but my mind and body is rejecting this strange energy. I don’t know if spirits are trying to contact me, if the devil is trying to eat me alive, or if my senses are just extra sensitive. Whatever this strange energy is… I wish it would go away.


I feel like I am possessed by something sometimes.

I’ve been having dreams that predicted things that were going to happen throughout my day, I can tell what some people are going to say before they say it, I get glimpses of things and then all of a sudden that same thing will show up on the TV. I am obviously picking up on something. The only thing is… I don’t think I want to anymore. LOL. I just want to go back to my normal life when all of this perception and hypersensitivity didn’t mean a thing to me. I can also feel a lot of pressure over the bridge of my nose. It’s just bizarre. I don’t know how to explain it or get rid of it. I just wish it would go away.

Dear God – Please Make It Just Go Away

When I woke up, after hours of sleep, I started cleaning. I was in a really really bad mood though. Almost like something was taking over me. I can’t explain it. I was dragging my feet around, reluctantly putting stuff back in its proper place, and whining the entire time.

I decided that if I was going to stop the downward spiral of emotions I was going to have to make a conscious decision to try to get in a better mood.

After an hour or so, I made love to my man and some of the tension went away. My body was obviously craving some kind of physical connection. It helped a lot with the mood.

Although I am not 100% right now, I am sure that with doing some research, making a conscious decision to feel better, and taking things step by step I will get better.

If you have any input… PLEASE do not hesitate to reply below.

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Day 2: Living From The Heart

Day 2

Posting A Little Early

Well, the day is not quite over, but I am doing my post a little early. Someone told me in the sweetest way today that I am on the computer too much. LOL. With that said… here I am – for a little while – then I must go.

I want to share some things with you today. I thought about this question yesterday… What is your real worth? Is it your beauty? Your profession? Your spirituality? What really makes you worth something in this world? Is it what we believe or hope for? Is it the dreams inside of us that we somehow bring to reality? I think if everyone could find what their true worth is (the reason they were specifically created) this world would be much happier. I open this question up to the readers. What is your real worth? Why do you believe you were created?

Do you believe that you were created to just be? If so, why are so many running around trying to fit into groups and different areas of life. Is there something wrong with just being? Why are people so afraid to be without? Why do people (including myself), hang on to labels, professions, and what other people think?

I open these questions up to the universe, and as soon as I find anything even remotely close to an answer, I will share it with you. I think that if we had those answers, we would be happier and more content. I just look at the world sometimes and feel like underneath all of those rosy smiles, pretty pictures, and Instagram shots we are suffering. There is a part of us that is crying out for something authentic and pure that we can’t seem to find. There are answers to our mysteries. If there weren’t any answers to those questions, I wouldn’t be able to pose the questions.

The Journey I’m On

Perhaps this is the journey that I am embarking on. This seems to be the period where life is stripping me naked. I am reluctantly throwing away all of my preconceived notions and getting my ass tossed around by the universe just to stand vulnerable and without an ounce of belief left in any one particular thing. I feel like I am standing in the shivering cold with no one around that hears or helps me. I am in the darkest part of my soul screaming for the light. I think to myself sometimes, what if there is no light? What if you remain unknown? What if this is all there is? What if no one ever answers the call? Could you find a way to be 100% comfortable with just yourself as you are. Snot nosed, tears pouring down your face, naked, and vulnerable. Right now the answer is no. I need my clothes. I need to fit in. I need to belong. I need to feel wanted and attractive. I need the authority figures to see me as Precious (the nickname granted to me by my grandmother) and untainted. I need that in my life.

I am however searching for the moment of freedom when I don’t need any of that. It’s not right now. Right now comfort and security is all I know. Never mind that it is a twisted, manipulative, bonded kind of comfort. That doesn’t matter. The thought that I may be seen as unruly, unimportant, or irrelevant to this world at large in some kind of way is much more daunting than stepping outside of my comfort zone.

It’s Just Me Ranting A Bit

Call this a rant if you will, but it’s just my way of showing the world how my mind works. I have a billion unanswered questions. So many things pent up inside. The basis of some spiritual worship tells us not to ask questions, but I have always been inquisitive. I remember when I was younger. I ran around snooping, looking in peoples’ stuff, tattle telling. I was a bit of a problem for any parent that just wanted their child to be quiet. Oh trust me, I did what I was told, but it didn’t last long. Lol. I was always right back into the next thing. I had so many questions then, and that part of me still lives on. Only thing is, when I was younger, the questions didn’t seem to weigh so heavy on me.

I could just say, “eh” when I didn’t receive an answer and move on to my next mystery. It’s different now. I hate to see people suffering. I dislike with a passion to not be able to help those closest to me that need help. I cannot stand when those close to me come to me crying because they can barely make ends meet to pay their monthly bills. The world at large is screaming out for something that money cannot buy however… I just don’t know how to fill the holes that people have in their heart. I can start to ask questions though.

Music Defining Emotion

I listened to a powerful song today. I am sure a lot of you have heard Beyonce sing Listen. I know that there is a lot of controversy surrounding Beyonce and her family, but one thing I cannot deny is her musical talent. This song just sends shivers down my spine. I don’t even know what is so deep inside me that makes me want to shout this song out from the rooftop, but she sings the words that I can’t find. I feel a power deep inside that I cannot express outwardly sometimes. Here is the video just incase you want to listen.

The Shifting Universe

I believe that when we are too rigid the universe is not able to bend and move to our requests. It just kills the creativity of the universe when you have too much of an “idea” of exactly the way you want things to go in your mind. The purpose of this 30 day living from the heart is to just follow my instincts. Where ever they may lead me. I can desire and ask for things, but there has to be some flexibility in order for the universe to deliver. I believe there are answers. So my work during this process is to get in sync with the ease and flow of my well-being.

In Closing

Don’t be afraid to ask questions. There are answers out there. I also learned something else that is very important. Don’t wait until you are aggravated and annoyed with your day to try to get into a good mood. Do it early. Wake up and get yourself in a good mood. Right from the jump. You can start with meditation, a nice run, or even journaling. Do whatever you can to start your day on the right track.

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