How Do I Get This Ocean Outside Of Me?

For the past couple of days, something has felt off inside of me.

I have been so emotional.

The tears that I have cried over the past couple of days have been tears of sadness, accompanied with thoughts like: Who am I? Why am I here? What was I really made for? And why is the current way I am expressing myself, causing me to feel tension inside?

Yesterday night, after I settled down from the tears, I received a vision.

I was in the ocean surfing some beautiful waves. My logical mind wanted to disrupt the vision because riding big waves is impossible for me. For one, I am terrified of being in the middle of the ocean and for two, I can’t swim.

I trusted the vision however, and sat with the energy for a few minutes after it was done. I felt great after the vision and thought, wow that was wonderful – now only if I could do that in real life.

I got up this morning with the intention of just taking it easy. I was going to just let the day flow and just take whatever came my way. I didn’t want to get too much in the mind or pay too much attention to anything today. I just kind of wanted it to be an easy day.

Throughout the day, as I was on some social media sites I felt very emotional again, but this time I wasn’t crying tears of sadness. They were tears of joy, and they seemed to come forward for the littlest things.

Several quotes made me cry this morning.

Several pictures that I looked at made me cry.

Just seeing people in their natural states of being made me cry.

It was very weird to say the least, but I trusted that the New tears were a part of the process.

Out of nowhere I was drawn to this video where Kate Northrup (author and truth seeker) was interviewing Meggan Watterson (author and self proclaimed spiritual misfit) on Glimpse TV.

Meggan said something so profound, and it summed up the feelings that I have been feeling during this spiritual journey.

On my spiritual journey I have felt this feeling inside that I could not define until I heard Meggan say, how do I get this ocean outside of me?

The lightbulb went off, and I said, yes that’s it!

That is what I was feeling.

That is the tension inside that I didn’t know how to express, and she had summed it up perfectly.

It’s so true. You start out on this road knowing there is so much inside, but for some reason it seems too powerful to express.

Perhaps you were told to keep quiet in the past, or maybe your sensitivity, power, and presence were not appreciated throughout your life, or maybe you hold back out of fear that if you open your heart again, someone will take your best work (your heart, your love, and your sentiments), and stomp on them.

You’ve been heartbroken in the past, and you don’t trust opening your heart again or sharing yourself freely with others. I found a quote this morning that helps remedy those feelings.

Let your heart crumble into an infinite amount of tiny, precious seeds. Then plant love everywhere you go. InstagramView On Instagram

All of the above are reasons why I haven’t allowed the ocean of love, knowledge, and compassion to flow forth from me freely. The uneasiness that I feel is that ocean inside saying, it’s time to let go, it’s time to trust, it’s time to link with your real flow, but I keep denying its powerful presence into my life.

So the vision of the waves that I received from this morning showed me that I was getting ready to finally link with information that could help me move forward in a powerful way.

It is a beautiful feeling to see that your soul and your intuition are guiding you to the information that you need to hear.

So I am on a quest now to find out – how do I get this ocean outside of me?

I have done a pretty good job by releasing some of my heart and soul into different areas (my books, my Writing Heart on Tumblr, my Instagram site, my Pinterest boards, my Soul Guidance site, etc), but I feel there is something more – something bigger, that is trying to be expressed – something profound.

I can feel it trying to break through, but I still have these walls up, and it’s having a difficult time getting in.

I realized today that now is the time to surrender to the wave, to the flow, to life, and to trust that what is coming is beautiful and will reconcile these mixed feelings and heal alot of hearts.

It’s time to surrender and really openheartedly trust the flow of life without fear, without apprehension, and without apologies.

Thank you so much for reading!

Renee B.

Intuitive Guide & Inner Work Specialist

If you like this post, don’t forget to hit like, comment, share, and subscribe.

Photo Credit

Having Fun With Manifestation

Manifestation can be a lot of fun, but it can also piss you off if you take it too seriously.

For those of you that don’t know what manifestation is, it’s the process of attracting what you desire into your life. The process basically is supposed to work like this:

You have a thought, desire, or concept in mind.

That thought or concept creates an energy stream.

That energy stream begins to flow in your direction if it’s not interrupted.

After awhile, you start to see the evidence of that thought, concept, or desire show up in your life as a physical thing or as a new experience.

It really is supposed to be that simple, but we contradict it with our negative thoughts, our negative attitude, or our controlling nature. Sometimes we try to will things into being, instead of just allowing it to make its way to us.

That’s when manifestation gets annoying.

You don’t see the evidence of the things you desire, so you start to get discouraged about your ability to create.

Here is a fun way to see your connection to manifestation. It’s a simple game, and I would love to hear about your results.

Take out a piece of paper and a pencil.

Write down 3 random things that you would like to see throughout your day.

Don’t think too much about it. 

Just write down 3 things that seem to spark excitement in you. 

Fold up the piece of paper and put it in your wallet or purse.

Let go of your attachment to how those things will show themselves to you. Just go about your day and be easy about the process.

Throughout that day you will see the manifestation magic. You will see at least one if not all of the things on your list. It’s so fun when it makes its way into your conscious awareness because it hits you as a big AHA. You may even laugh to yourself when you realize that what you wrote down actually found you, and showed itself to you.

Be easy about it. Don’t try some big thing just yet. Remember the purpose of this experiment is to get your creative muscles working. If you try too hard, you will be disappointed because your belief won’t match your desire. So make it something small and silly.

For example if you wrote down, I want to see a hot air balloon, my favorite dog, or a pink car, those are things that are a little odd, but that you don’t have that much resistance towards. Remember to have fun and write down the first 3 things that spark excitement and fun within you.

My sister tried this experiment.

One of the 3 things that she wrote down was that she would like to see her favorite color (purple). She was a little bit skeptical, and thought to herself, but I see it all the time and I don’t know how I would see it in a way that would be special.

She decided to stick with it though. She wrote it down, and then she went on about her day. The next morning she was getting ready for work, and she was in her shower just thinking about the previous day.

She thought about the list that I showed her and then all of asudden she looked around her shower and every single item in the shower and around her was purple. Her sponge, the body wash, the shaving cream, the soap, everything!

She called me right away cracking up. She always had all that stuff in there, but she had never seen it in the way that she did that morning. She almost fell out because she realized that it worked.

I was so excited that she could see her connection to the playful energy.

So try it, and let me know how your experiment turns out.

Thanks for reading!

heart Nay

Photo Source Credit

Your Words Have Power

words-have-power

Building An Empire With Your Words

I just finished reading Building An Empire With Your Words by Paul Jun. I came across the book while researching some information on self-development and writing. His website, motivated mastery, is filled with easy to read articles on self-awareness and motivation.

Building An Empire With Your Words is a 35 page book that is packed with insightful information. I love a writer that can say so much, with few words. Paul Jun’s writing is inspiring, to the point, and easy to understand. He uses beautiful quotes by well-known people, personal stories, and examples to speak his truth. He talks about the power of words and how they shape your life.

There Are No Coincidences

I just posted an |||article||| about the power of words yesterday. So it is no surprise to me that a chain of events would lead me to information that coincides with the same subject that I just posted about. When the elements of the universe line up, it is truly amazing. I love moments like that! I just had a simple thought, what should I post today? I went on about my business gathering information, reading, and researching like I usually do and then I “accidentally” clicked on one of the folders on my computer. I had completely forgotten that I even downloaded the book. I must say, there are no coincidences in life. I have always known that statement to be true, and me reading that book today is further confirmation.

The forward of the book is written by Jeff Goins, the author of Wrecked and You Are A Writer. I have followed Jeff Goins blog for a long while. It was no surprise to see his name in the book as well. He is passionate about writing and words, and I can see how Paul and Jeff are friends. Both are passionate about spreading information through the written word.

Moved To Tears

While reading Building An Empire With Your Words I was moved to tears. There were times when I felt that Paul was speaking directly to the artist in me; reminding me to never give up and that my words too, have influence. He even wrote about the book being a slap in the face (a wake-up call). It is no coincidence that I talked about inspiration smacking you in the face in my |||What Is Inspiration? ||| article yesterday. Coincidence? I think not!

I do believe in the power of words. I believe words can heal, help, comfort, inspire, and drive someone forward in a powerful way. He even mentions his motivation for writing was not for money, fame, or because of boredom. I agree, when I started publishing my books it was for the freedom of writing and because I could not “NOT” write the books. Sometimes, I must admit, my attention does get diverted. I would love to make money through writing. It’s what I want to do for a living. However, I agree that money should not be the main focus. It just kills the joy of writing when you worry about the money aspect of it.

I know that it’s hard out there. I know that we all need to make a living and survive, but as a wise teacher once told me,

“You have to honor your gifts and talents for the sake of honoring your gifts and talents.”

What I took from that saying was:

Your talents and gifts deserve expression.

There is no price that can be put on your unique gifts. Open your heart and express yourself. Whether it be through song or dance, art or writing, photography or big business, you have the right to express.

I want people to know that I bleed too, I doubt too, I lose faith sometimes too, but I can get better by taking responsibility for myself, my actions, my words, my thoughts, and my beliefs which ultimately create… my life.

Thank you for reading!

finished-heart Renee

I would love to hear from you!
Do words hurt?
How have someone’s words influenced you?
Have you inspired or hurt someone with your words?