Truth Be Told Tuesday: Year End Post

Truth Be Told Tuesday

I have to come clean.

I am so glad that 2014 is coming to a close.

I’m really looking forward to a new time…

The start of a new year is permission for people like me to move past the feelings of failure, disappointment, and sadness. To maybe – somehow – try to cultivate a different frame of mind to get to the answers and fulfillment that we really have been seeking. So I am so happy to say PEACE OUT to 2014.

I hope you all enjoyed my posts this year…

I have to be completely honest, most of the posts that were written this year were written from the perspective of someone with a broken-heart, crushed dreams, and resentment. They were written from the perspective of someone trying to hold the pieces of her broken-heart together while she squeezed out tidbits of her passion.

While the demons of fear, anger, and disappointment sat on her shoulder begging her to hang it up, she told them, “no, if I don’t have anything else, I have myself and my writing and you will not take away my voice.”

I have so much more to learn…

The truth is… I feel like I don’t know a damn thing.

As a writer, I feel like there is so much more to learn. As a mother, I feel like every time I get something right – my son changes. As a person, I feel like I am drowning in this pool that we all call life. I have alot of walls to break through, guards to let down, and paths to navigate through. I have learned a hell of alot, but learning isn’t the answer.

The real transformation comes when you can embrace new concepts, ways of being, beliefs, and new ideas, and I have not been able to do that too much in 2014. I have received insight that my childhood insecurities has beat up before it even got a chance to get through the doors. I have received messages that the ego crooks have stolen before I even got a chance to sift through and find the treasures within. I have launched more ideas and dreams than probably anyone you know, but the “straight and narrow” in me noticed that they didn’t line up with my upbringing – so out the door they went.

But 2014 was not all bad…

I got one of the greatest gifts of all in 2014. A gift that I didn’t think that I could have because it hadn’t shown up in my life for years. I gave birth to my first born – Noah. He has been my greatest gift and greatest accomplishment and his very presence helps me realize that dreams do come true – even if they do take some time.

As far as my writing goes…

I am in the process of writing my new book {Soul Guidance Finding Your Way Home}. There are moments in my life where all is well, and a stream of well-being just flows from me. It’s a place where there are no worries and no fears. Sometimes I think to myself – where the hell did that passage come from – because I didn’t feel anything close to that yesterday? But then I remember – we all have that place inside that no one can take from us.

My wishes for the new year…

I am looking to take my blog in a different direction. Although I have written some posts that have some good information and good stories, I would like to dive a little bit more into what people need. I feel like my calling is to be a soul writer, but I am going to focus more on content that can help others move past their difficulties, break free from restrictions, and release their pain. I keep getting the message that I am a healer and I want nothing more than to express my gifts in the most genuine, uplifting, and whole way possible. I don’t feel that I quite captured that this year.

My wish for the new year is that I come back to this platform – brand new. From a new perspective. Not a hurt, damaged, heart-broken individual trying to express herself, but from a new beingness. From the beingness of a healed, whole, gifted individual that has something to share with the world. I will not be back on this platform, until I find my way and am able to reveal my gifts to you in a way that can help heal, advance, and move us all in a positive direction.

For all the writers out there…

Don’t give up. Follow your dreams. I know sometimes it’s hard and things seem slim, but we will all find a way. For those who are making it big time and starting to really find the level of expression that they have always desired “kudos to you” and “keep it up”. I wish you all a very safe, happy, healthy new year. I will be back, but not before I can deliver my “whole self” to this platform. I don’t know how long that will take. Just keep me in your prayers and well-wishes.

I appreciate you all!

Thank you for reading!

Happy New Year!

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Truth Be Told Tuesday

Truth Be Told Tuesday

I have to come clean.

I don’t know what the hell to write about for Truth Be Told Tuesday.

As a matter of fact, I thought about renaming the whole “Tuesday” subject altogether. If I did that however, I would seem scattered, unorganized, and inconsistent.

I mean aren’t writers supposed to have their shit together? Aren’t they supposed to know exactly what to write and when to write it? Isn’t there something specific to write about for Mondays, Tuesdays, Wednesdays, Thursdays, Fridays, Saturdays, and Sundays?

If I can speak honestly (that is what Truth Be told Tuesday is all about), I haven’t been that inspired to post on WordPress. I don’t like to force writing, but I don’t want to leave my platform empty either.

So what to do?

I figured I would just sit down, and let whatever wanted to come out – come out.

I don’t feel like a writer today… The very reason that people go to writing blogs is to keep up with what other “writers” or “authors” are doing. I think of people coming to my blog and asking, “where’s the content, where are the stories, where’s the setting, where are the characters, where’s the adventure?”

To which I reply, “you aren’t getting any of that from me today. I am not a storyteller, an author, or a writer today. Not the “official” kind anyway.”

I am curled up with my hot chocolate and putting all of the writing rules to the side.

What I really desire more than anything is a real connection, with real people. Let’s be real – most of the people don’t really read what’s on the blogs anyway. They skim through the content to see if anything looks interesting or fits their current needs, and if the first few words don’t grab their attention they’re off to something else.

Between facebook, twitter, homework, housework, work-work, the kids, and all the other crap that people have to do, there seems to be no time for genuine connections. God forbid you ask someone to comment on your post or to share their stories – they are so wrapped up in other things while browsing through your post that they don’t even hear your pleas for authentic connection.

I must admit – I have been guilty of that from time to time. We call it multi-tasking, but what it really is – is robbing us of the present moment. So tonight, I am not in the mood for thinking, writing things down in a perfect format, to pour my heart into another post, that no one is even going to read (entirely). So I will just say a few words here and there, in the fashion that my current mood decides to script them.

I’m frustrated with putting myself out there, being vulnerable, and opening up – without a single response from people who I know are out there feeling the same way I am.

I want to know what people desire, I want to having meaningful conversations, I want hearts that I connect with. I guess what I am trying to ask is, what makes you feel alive? Is it really writing or is it something else? Am I the only one that feels – if I don’t feel genuinely inspired – I can’t write? Does anyone else feel that way?

I am not the kind of person that wants to just throw anything out into the universe. Even as I type this, I am still trying to be considerate with the words that I choose and how I say them. Even though my mood is… well we won’t go there.  Part of the reason I am writing this post is to vent. To let the world know that I feel so uninspired. Especially when it comes to posting on here. I am tired of giving my time and attention to things that fall on deaf ears.

I am in the process of writing my new book, and the inspiration for that comes and goes. It’s actually quite nice and not that much of a headache at all, but this wordpress thing… I don’t know what to make of it.

I guess it’s okay to say exactly what I feel – as long as I am telling the truth in the process. It is Truth Be Told Tuesday.

Thank you for reading!

Do you have anything that you would like to confess for Truth Be Told Tuesday? If so, go to the top of the post and click “leave a comment” to share your story. If you prefer to post your response on your own blog, just add the words “Truth Be Told Tuesday” somewhere in your post and link back to this article.

I look forward to hearing your response.

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Finding Your Soul Mate

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Living From The Heart Day 8

It’s much easier than you think. What if I told you that your soul mate is easy to find?

There is a love that stands the test of time. One that runs deeper than anything you’ve ever felt. A passion that is unmet. There is a love story that all other love stories fail in comparison to.

Let me explain this in the easiest way that I know how.

Your Soulmate = A Match To Your Soul

What if I told you, that’s what you were looking for? You are looking to match up with your soul.

In yesterday’s article |||The #1 Thing That’s Killing Your Joy|||, I spoke about the most important relationship in your life (the relationship between you and your higher self). If that relationship is not tended to properly, it shows in all areas of your life.

Sometimes there is a miscommunication about the meaning of God. There is a miscommunication about who God is (who’s this God character anyway), what HE is about (why is God only a he), and what he wants from you (wink, wink).

First, lets play around with a concept.

What If God Was A Dream?

Think About It

I mean an actual dream. Like the ones you have about what you want to be when you grow up. What if God was more than an image? What if God was a concept? An idea? A Vision? A Passion?

GOD is the dream. Much like a dream of becoming a writer, a dancer, or a musician.

From the moment you are born, you have an energy  that says, “You and I are one.” Along the road of life we get caught up in things and sometimes that connection dwindles. The energy then says, “We belong together.”

In essence your God energy is powerful, untamed, unfiltered, knowing, confident, sure, alive, joyful, indulgent, certain, skilled, and intuitive.

We, As In Human Beings, Are Looking To BE The Representation Of That Energy.

Be

A lot of people think that they can form this connection by things outside of themselves. I must agree that I too, was looking for love in all of the wrong places. We look for love in our jobs, our cars, our significant other, our children, and many other things outside of ourselves.

The deepest connection can only be made by you familiarizing yourself with the idea of God, knowing that you are reaching for that highest expression, and then finding a way to honor that birthright. Your birthright is the right to embody & flow God. There are many different ways to honor that #1 relationship, but first you must know that your higher self is your soulmate and that you belong together.

People tend to see God – up high. While imagining they are – down low. We often tend to see God as an outside being or entity.

God is an energy, an idea, a dream that we aspire to.

Think of the trilogy – The Father, The Son, & The Holy Spirit.

  • The Father – Being The Dream or Aspiration
  • The Son – Being The Physical Representation Of That Energy – Dealing With Setbacks & Difficulties
  • The Holy Spirit – Being The Energy or State Of Being That Allows The Free Flow Of God

When we are in our flow (holy spirit), we are balanced. When we see God as separate from us, looking down on us, mocking and criticizing us, we get off balance. That view is a skewed view.

How about reimagining your image of God? How about seeing God as a knowing energy that just wants to flow through you to experience (in physical reality) what it knows? It knows itself to be love and wants to experience the love of its SELF.

Trust

We doubt ourSELF sometimes, get caught up in things that divert our attention from the main goal, and even get terrified when the dream seems too big for us to accomplish. This energy is powerful. It doesn’t doubt, it doesn’t worry, it doesn’t fear. It just is. So it could feel very overwhelming to have this BIG energy over you that you have to live up to. But soften it a bit and don’t think of it as something that you have to live up to. Think of it as something that you are, and all you are doing is allowing that energy to flow into your experience as often as possible.

The purpose of life is to experience that flow as often as possible. I started to say manage, but then (we humans) would make that into another job. Let’s be clear. This is not a job. This is WHO WE ARE. It’s the whole point of existence. Not a chore, not a task, not an obligation, but a joy. A joy to feel and know who and what we are.

The Best State Of Being To Allow This Energy

Well the first thing is realizing that you want to flow in this energy in the most harmonious way.

It’s not that difficult when you have a partner (your inner being) that will never leave you, is a lifelong partner, and your ideal mate.

My inner being led me to decode another dream today, and this is where I am receiving all of this information. I am so interested when I see the pieces of this puzzle come together. I never know what I am going to write entirely. Things start connecting and pieces start showing up, it’s just truly amazing. I love feeling this energy out, and getting use to it.

In my dream there was a boy that was watching me tear the house apart looking for my phone. The boy just sat there quietly playing a video game, undisturbed, nonjudgmental, and not worried, and kind of just observed me looking for my phone. That was an aspect of myself that was in its natural flow. That is how God is all of the time. God knows we aren’t in any real trouble. God is unharmed, not offended, and knowingly present. When I calmed down in the dream I found my phone. The dream had other trinkets and treasure, but in order to fit this all in, I will share a couple key points.

The most significant things that I learned from decoding my dream are:

  1. Nothing Is Ever Lost – It Only Evolves
  2. Everything Is Working In Our Favor

My aunt’s house was the first place that I ever got my heart broken. I had a bear that I carried around with me everywhere. This bear was no bigger than my hand is now. If I slept, it slept. If I ate, it ate. If I went to the bathroom, well you know the rest. I slept over my aunt’s house one weekend and left my bear on her bed. I never saw it again. I tried to get them to find it, but they insisted that it wasn’t there. I probably cried all night long.

Now, was that experience created to hurt me? Of course not, but my 6 year old mind could not fathom ever being without that bear. I’m pretty sure I probably wanted to die. This is how we often feel when we feel torn apart from our source energy. It breaks our heart. That experience happened so that I could realize two things this day…

  1. The bear was just a symbol for the connection between me and my inner being. It wasn’t the prime connection.
  2. Nothing can take that connection from you.

For me, that hidden layer of feeling lost or feeling like I had lost something, moved into other areas of my life. For the past few years I have been struggling with my passion and have been trying to reconnect to that flow. The struggling that I’m feeling is in connection with me feeling a loss from losing my job. It’s not that I actually even lost my job; I quit my job, but my mind still sees that event as a loss. It’s very difficult to move forward when you have the idea that you lost something, instead of the idea that you are going towards what you are meant to do.

Nothing is ever a loss. I realized that one day when I thought about my bear that I lost from childhood. I started seeing bow ties everywhere that day. My attention was drawn to them. After a while it hit me. I burst out in laughter because I realized that it was showing me my bear in many different ways. My bear had a bow tie that I use to always look at. It stood out to me that day so that I could realize the essence of that bear’s presence was still alive and well.

Winding Down

I know things get tough, but don’t forget to look for God in all things. Even in the situations where it seems the hardest and the darkest – God is there. If a relationship went, that means it was time to go. Not to break your heart, but to find you a better match to your soul. I am now able to let go of the idea that I am struggling because I quit my job. I am now able to let that go. You are a witness to this huge event because that idea has been eating me alive for a while. I now know that everything in life is there to move you in the direction of your greatest expression.

Find a way to honor your soul mate. The one will will never leave you, that one that will find you anywhere that you go, and the one who will turn this world upside down searching for a way to bring you home again if you get lost.

Your inner being wants you to be at peace with who you really are. Doubt, worry, fear, constant rejection of the ideas and yourself only rips you apart.

You have to know that the Self is fearless, accommodating, energetically aligned, balanced, stable, confident, gentle, open, and wise.

Grab a mirror, look your soul mate in the eyes and say:

{I Got You}

In Closing

All of this information came from decoding one dream. There is so much information packed into our center of knowledge that it is just unfathomable. I can’t even explain how much information is trying to come through. I will say however, I enjoy making sense of all of this complexity. I will continue to try and balance this new emerging energy, and will just take it one step at a time.

Thanks in advance for reading, commenting, sharing, and subscribing.

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