Creative Expression And The Fear Of Spontaneity


Creativity is a natural expression of the human soul.

It’s a form of us tuning into the Infinite realm and bringing the unseen to life. Creativity is meant to come easy, but a couple of things hinder that current – fear and rigidity. We can’t fathom the idea that something else has control and knows exactly what we need, but it does, and it’s inviting you to start creating without all the “rules” that we’re accustomed to. Here’s Creative Expression and The Fear Of Spontaneity

It’s Not Okay To Create

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It’s not okay to create…

At least, it seems that way sometimes.

When I am washing the dishes, my son plays quietly in his playpen. When I am folding and washing tons of clothes, all is well. The universe conspires to give me the space and freedom to cook, clean, and tend to the house – no questions asked, but the minute I go to sit down and write, paint, or dig into the pieces of one of my juicy dreams, everything goes wrong.

My child clings to me for dear life, the phone rings, dings, and buzzes, the door bell rings, stuff falls in the kitchen, etc – you get the point.

So what is it?

Why is it, that the moment we go to focus our time and attention on our art, something goes wrong or distracts us?

Is it not okay to be creative?

Is it not okay to spend your time wondering what next piece of art you are going to bring to life?

Is the universe conspiring against the idea of filling our lives with pleasurable experiences?

The answer is no, but there is someone conspiring against your creativity, and that someone is YOU.

Your thoughts and beliefs are what’s conspiring against you.

You see, we all have ideas about what we can do and what we can’t do – what is allowed and what’s not allowed – what’s appropriate and what’s not appropriate.

We also carry around this huge sense of responsibility, so when we go to steal a few minutes to lose ourselves in our art or indulge in our passion, the warning bell inside goes off and screams “defiance”.

So what do you do?

It’s damn there impossible to abandon your craft. It will bang on the doors of your heart and mind until you let it in…

So do you sell your children, take your savings, and catch the first flight out of here to a private island?

Nope… don’t go that far. 

But what you can do is – create anyway!

Leave the dishes aside, place your child in a loved one’s care, turn off your phone, and create!

I know that it’s difficult, but when you choose to create anyway, you are letting your inner world know that creativity is an essential part of your being, and that its existence in your world is not up for discussion.

By constantly reminding yourself of this and easing up on yourself when you allow yourself these creative breaks, you start to see the world around you work with you to help you get more time to yourself.

But you have to ease up on yourself first. You have to stop feeling so guilty for leaving some things aside to honor your passion and your soul.

It’s an essential part of being happy and enjoying your life. 

Just think about it – you start to feel miserable when you deny yourself the time and space to do what you love – don’t you?

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Renee B.

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Artist Confession – I’m Afraid I Won’t Do It Justice


I’m afraid I won’t do it justice.

What am I referring to?

My creative core.

How do I take something so big, so beautiful, so powerful, so rich, and do it justice? I am afraid I won’t capture it sometimes.

I can feel the heartbeat of my creative core, and it brings me to tears just to sit in its presence sometimes. So how do I take all of those roots, those ancestors that came before me, that brilliance, and express that. Pen and paper can’t capture it all.

I sometimes feel inadequate to it – I must admit.

But, I am learning that it has chosen me to express in any level or capacity that I can, and when I am more comfortable allowing the largeness of that energy to flow more freely, it will be right there with me.

So to all the artists out there, just flow, just be, just create, and little by little open up to the vastness that is your creative being.

It’s not rushing you.

It’s not pressuring you.

It just wants to be with you.

It wants to mingle, to mix, to create with you in any way that it can, and it’s more than willing to wait until you believe in yourself and your ability enough to really own what you have.

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Born Like An Artist (Comic)

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I Sense Overwhelm – How Many Roles Are Crying Out For Your Attention?


I Had A Dream Last Night That Got Me Thinking About My Journey Into The Unknown.

As some of you know, I have been working on exploring newer, fuller, richer opportunities for myself.

I have taken steps to see a world unfold that I never even dreamed of when I was younger. This exploration of the self, exploring my goodness, and what I could potentially be, are all very new ideas for me.

With That Said, I Feel Like I Am Being Pulled In 100 Different Directions.

I am trying to be a good mother, a good wife, trying to write my next book, run a soul guidance business, and still trying to do my inner work so that I can grow to be the best person that I can be. That’s alot of damn hats to wear. But I can’t give up on my dreams because they are calling me.

I have never been so close to so many possibilities, and I must admit that it scares the hell out of me.

Especially since I feel I am doing it alone. I mean I have support, don’t get me wrong, but alot of my family and friends don’t really support my dream. They support me, but they just don’t really get this whole “want to be a writer” and “soul guidance counselor” type thing. They just don’t get it, and therefore they don’t support it as much as I would like them to.

I don’t blame them though. People have their own lives to live. They can barely navigate their own waters, let alone try to help someone that is wayyyyyyy out there in the ocean, and that has thrown away the oars (lost her mind). That is what they probably think about me chasing what they believe to be a “pipe dream”.

I Almost Followed Someone Else’s Idea Of A Dream The Other Day.

Bless her heart, my sister said to me the other day, “why don’t you become an accountant?” She asked me that question because I was helping her with her taxes – which was a polite way to say, why don’t you get a real job and start making some real money. 

The funny part about that story is that I actually considered it for a minute…

How About You?

How many different roles do you play? How many things right now are crying for your time and attention? Do you feel like you are trying to follow your dreams with little to no support? Does it overwhelm you sometimes – like it does to me?

My Dream Last Night Showed Me My Fears So Clearly.

In the dream I was on this beautiful cliff in Antigua about to plunge into this beautiful multi-colored ocean, but the drop was 100+ feet down. I thought I was going to die in the dream so I just stood there on the cliff paralyzed by fear.

Many different thoughts ran through my mind. What if I can’t swim? What if I can’t breathe? What if I am not strong enough to pull myself back up once I plunge into the water?

Isn’t That How It Goes When We Are Getting Ready To Take The Leap Into Different Parts Of Our Experience?

When we’re getting ready to accept a new job or new opportunities, when we are leaving the old stuff behind and moving into the unknown, or when we simply change our minds and move in a different direction.

Fear paralyzes us, and we remain stuck or overwhelm sets in and we feel that we cannot fulfill all these different roles we are being called to play. There are a few things that I want to remind you (and myself) of, because we do have our own answers. The only problem is, we don’t believe that we have the right answers sometimes or we aren’t taking the time to implement small changes that could make a world of difference.

So Here Are The Reminders

  • Your desires and dreams matter, and you do not have to push them to the side.
  • There is space for all (your family, your desires, relationship wise, etc).
  • Don’t penalize yourself for wanting all aspects of your life to work (the relationship aspect, the financial aspect, or the artistry aspect).
  • We were created to express many different parts of ourself at once.
  • We can decide to marry (commit fully) to those things we love, and divorce (withdrawal our time and attention) from the things that we do not love or care for.
  • If you are overwhelmed you can stop for a while. When you return, take baby steps. You don’t have to complete or get everything right all at one time. Stop thinking you have to do everything all at once.
  • That “have to finish everything right now” mentality is a perfectionist mindset. Staying in that kind of mindset leaves no room for you to breathe, no room for you to change your mind, or commit errors, and learn from your missteps. Staying in that perfectionist mindset is the quickest way to get yourself overwhelmed.
  • Fear is natural, but there is a new you on the other side of fear. Work on standing up for yourself and your dreams little by little. Say yes a little more, and criticize yourself for wanting more – a little less.

Learn To See Your Roles Differently

You obviously are a valuable asset in all of the roles that you play. You just gotta try not to overwhelm yourself with thoughts of being perfect in each role. There is time and space for each one of your dreams. As a matter of fact, all the roles you play, have the potential to bring out the best in you – you just have to see it in that way.

Your not being asked to be perfect. You are being asked to just be yourself – in all aspects of your life – as fully as you know how.

Another Reminder

You have your own answers. You know what you love and what you want to invest your time and energy into. Do more of that, and less of what you don’t want to do.

Be Patient

It takes time to cultivate new habits. Especially when you are doing something as scary as following your dreams.

It takes a step here and a step there, faith here and readjusting there, a leap here and holding out there.

There’s no set pattern, but you can find a rhythm that brings you into harmony with all the aspects of your life that you care about the most. Focus on bringing harmony to the elements that you care about the most. It’s not quantity – it’s quality.

When you are with your kids – be with them fully. When you are working on your art – be with it fully. When you are doing the dishes – be with that fully. It takes times to develop the habit of staying in the present moment, but you can do it. I’m rooting for you to be fulfilled in all areas of your life!

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Your Inner Child a.k.a. Your Creative Self

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Dreams Are An Excellent Gateway To Understanding The Self

Last night I had a dream that had to do with my creative life, what fuels it, how I felt about it, and how to make it run a bit smoother. The dream inspired this post.

Some people do not realize that they have a creative part of themselves. It’s the part that wants to play, express, explore, and find fulfillment at all times. In your dreams, the creative part of yourself is usually shown as a small child. It could be your own child, a niece or nephew, or an unknown child. It’s not necessarily who the child is that’s important, it’s your feelings about that child and what positive qualities they bring out of you that you are looking for.

What Does Your Inner Child (Your Creative Self) Want?

Your inner child wants to play. It wants to dance, sing, explore, and sink its teeth into anything that it finds interesting.

Have you watched a small child play? If something peaks the child’s interest he or she doesn’t hesitate – they go – right for it – no questions asked. They don’t ask permission, they don’t think about it, they don’t hesitate, they just move in the direction of what is calling them. That is what our creative self is like.

Think of a time when you got a brilliant idea. I know that you felt good inside. I know that it lit up all the lights and warmed your soul. But too often, we get those flashes of insight from the heart and we thwart our plans to enjoy them with doubt, fear, and resistance, and then wonder why our creative life or business is not flourishing in the way that we would like it to.

Where Does Your Inner Child Come From?

I want you to take a minute and look at a very clear sign of where your inner child comes from. When a child comes into this world we call it a “bundle of joy”, your “heart and soul”, and your “pride and joy”. These are all clear indicators that your inner child (your creative self) comes from the heart. It comes from a place within that knows the things that will fulfill you. It comes from the place inside that knows what you do well. It comes from the place inside that knows which way is best for it to express itself.

The term pride and joy is fairly simple to understand. Pride being the feelings of feeling good, confident, in your own and proud of yourself, and your joy being the feelings of happiness, contentment, and fulfillment. That is what your inner child seeks at all times.

It’s quite the rascal and that little bugger won’t keep quiet.

Have you seen a child that finally finds his or her faaaaaavorite thing? You and an army of 1000 people could not get that “favorite thing” away from that child if you tried. It’s the same way with us when we find our passion. No matter how many times you tell it, “shut up I’m busy”, “go away”, “I can’t have you”, or “you’re against the rules” – it will keep coming back over and over and over again.

A child that has found its favorite thing will sleep with it, have lunch and dinner with it, bathe with it, go for walks with it, take it to school, and every other place that he or she goes.

That essentially, is what your heart is asking you to do when you have found your passion, but too often we feel like “responsible adults” that can’t “do what we love”.

If only we realized that doing what you love is the key to life – we would live much happier and fulfilling lives. All the other stuff is just a distraction.

Your Job As A Parent To Your Inner Child (Your Creative Self)

Have you ever seen a child do something that they are inspired to do and get yelled at by a parent? What happens? They freeze, they can’t move, and they are afraid to make moves towards things they desire from that point forward. They are taught by that anger that it’s not okay to move in the direction of something that they want. That will “get me in trouble”. This is what happens when we deny our true creative selves from surfacing – especially when it’s done from a stand point of anger, judgment, or scolding. We freeze anytime we get ready to create. We fear that we are going to make a mistake. We fear that we are not doing the right thing. All kinds of negative things run through our minds and this kills our creative self.

Your job as the parent of your creative self is to let the child breathe. You have seen the smile on a child’s face when he or she has found what they are looking for. It warms your heart. When you let the children run, play, and mess stuff up a bit, it slowly peels away the frustration, depression, and the “I’m not getting it right” syndrome. Your job is to let your inner child play. To give yourself permission to explore without judgment or condemnation.

You also need to realize that you are equipped for the job of handling this young energy. Just like you would never let anything harmful happen to your real children or the children you care about – you can think of handling your creative life the same way. If you are drawn to something – it is because your heart wants you to explore it. It knows the potential for you to feel joy and fulfillment which essentially, is what life is all about. You are not going to do anything to endanger yourself. The goal is to trust yourself and be free.

What You’ll Get In Return

Fulfillment. You won’t wake up everyday hating to go to work – because you will have found what you love to do. You won’t dread coming up with new ideas – because they will come to you naturally. You won’t fear the future – because you’ll know that no matter where your particular skill leads you, you’ll have everything that you need inside. You will have taught yourself how to hone in on your creative gifts, to let them run free, to encourage them from a place of love, and you’ll know that it’s what helps you breathe and is your reason for living.

What My Dream Taught Me Personally

I learned that when it comes to my creative freedom I am scared. I am scared to make a mistake, scared to get it wrong, scared to even try, out of fear of failure. But you cannot fail. The point of expressing yourself creatively is for the joy that it brings you, for you to connect with your natural flow, and for you then to see the results of “all of that” play out in a way that is most favorable to you. It’s the play of life, and we feel empty without it.

In my dream, my significant other, my 5 month old son (inner child), and I were on a motorcycle (my symbol for creative freedom and independence) looking for a gas station (a way to fuel my creativity). I wanted my partner to slow down some because he was making some daring moves when making the turn arounds on the highway. it’s not that I didn’t want to be on the ride and it’s not that I didn’t want my child with me. I just wanted him to slow down – which means savor the moments, take a little bit of time, don’t feel rushed or panicked, don’t feel like it’s something you have to do. All of these things that I have learned are the little nuggets of silver that I would like to share with you.

I say nuggets of silver because they are more my style than nuggets of gold. I think of silver as the color of intuition, my true self, and insight.

I Have Found My Direction

I love to explore, be nosy, find out things, and get answers to things. It’s the very thing that I use to do when I was younger that was NOT encouraged in my household, but I still loved to do it. I loved to pry through people’s things, find secrets, and uncover things. Now that I am an adult, I know that I am well within my rights to do this digging and probing, but sometimes my childhood conditioning doesn’t allow me to do so – so freely. I am taking this moment to declare this my new path. I will continue to explore self-discovery through decoding my dreams, and I will also continue to share the glimmers of silver that I find, with you all.

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As Artists, Are We Responsible For The Way Others View Our Content?

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Okay, where do I begin with this topic?

The other day I was reading a review for one of my books (Hooked On The Jones). The female who posted the review seemed very pleased with the book and I wanted to thank her – let’s call her Rachel.

So I go to Rachel’s twitter profile, just to check her out and see who she is, and thank her for the glowing review, and I swear to you – this girl couldn’t have been any older than 15 years old.

Now I don’t know her exact age but she looked very young, and anyone who has a care bear as one of their main photos, cannot be older than 15…

So I took a deep breath because I was at a lost for words. My book Hooked On The Jones is a rather steamy novel, and I didn’t feel right about someone that young reading it or liking it!

Once I browsed through some more of her photos, I saw that she was quite the “romance novel” addict.

I didn’t know how to handle the situation. I mean it’s none of my business really what people spend their money on, but something about it just bothered me. I do not want to be one of the reasons some 15 year old girl is in her kitchen explaining to her parents that she is pregnant.

Not to say that that’s the result of reading my book, but I mean… come on – you can see where that’s leading.

Okay, so maybe I’m being a bit dramatic, but where do we as artists draw the line? Or is there a line at all? 

I am in my early thirties, and I know that I was highly aroused writing the book. So I can only imagine what some young teen – who is being pressured by her friends to fit in, and going through all these hormonal changes is going through.

I started to try to find her mother on her page and write to her. I would have said, “you need to watch what your daughter is reading before you end up with a surprise.” I am only joking. I would NEVER do such a thing, but it just disturbed me a little bit.

Should we as artists worry about what we put out or are we well within our rights to express ourselves how we see fit? I would never put out anything too gruesome, offensive, or off-putting, but I am a grown woman, and I feel that I should be able to express myself as such.

Just seeing that young girl and her addiction to “soft porn” {joking} – bothered me.

I could be completely overreacting and/or completely wrong. That girl might not even be a teenager, but she sure looks like one.

So what do you think? I would love to hear if issues like this play a factor in what you create?

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